Simplicity

2011-03-16T12:11:00.000+08:00

I am like so bored at work and yes I have not been blogging, I even forget to blog for Eugene de birthday OTL

Oh well today is 16 march

Happy Birthday Melvin XD enjoy it.

I regret my 5th choice of FYP but now I can't complain so I have to be like, so be it liao lo.

I am bored and spamming shall end here.

Jya

2011-01-25T12:43:00.000+08:00

I am very bored, the lecture now is not even making much sense, yawns!!!

Oh well let me blog about the past few days.

On Saturday, went out with the JTC bunch to have like a farewell party for Beatrix, but T_T she is going to Aussie, will miss her much. well but before heading to meet her, I was in school with Eugene, well he need to recover his laptop charger and I have to go for strings.

Then headed over to Lot 1 with him as he is meeting his friend to do his project and such, then while he is doing his project I walked around Lot 1 to find things and play a bit XD

Then later we just head down to Bugis to meet the rest and well we arcade as usual then we went to eat dinner then we anyhow walk around then we just head home LOL

okok I know I am just like briefly touch go cos I am just lazy.

Nothing to talk about Sunday.

Now for yesterday, basically is a long day of rubbish, had some stupid resume workshop which bore me and stuff then have to go for meeting with Ian, which well, I expected the meeting outcome so it is not very surprising, afterall I have been working with him indirectly for quite some while, but I think only until yesterday then did he finally catch my name lo.

So basically it was just very long and zz.

Then went for dinner then head home with Eugene, which well the whole journey we did not really talk, cos he is on the phone with his friend and I was on the phone with my friend and yes my friend gave me very bad news that is the FYP topics are finalised, I got my 5th choice, which is not as bad but still it is not that amazing as well, cos it is afterall the topic whereby I do not know any of the teacher in charge lo HAHA XD

I just hope I can determine wad I am doing first, FYP or Internship...... and where am I doing my internship.....

oh well I hope the date of commencement can be pushed back though.

ah nvm shall not care now, i shal listen to lecture.

Jya

2011-01-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

I am back to blog, cos I am procrastinating about doing my reports haha XD, yes I am damn daring, I need to hand in like tomorrow and I am still so heck care.

I have been thinking a lot this past week, I have changed quite a bit I guess, from the dumb idiot who was consistently crying everyday to the demon that is just hurting people because he is bored. I am hating myself now, a lot.

I have no idea how many people have I injured during this past week, mentally or physically, I also not sure how I injure them liao....

I know my heart is telling me, this is how it cures itself, but I know it is just running from the fact and just putting an evil front so people would start to avoid, then again this is my defence mechanism for many years, basically once I get hurt, I shrink, act like a bastard and make people avoid me, so I would be left alone.

This way, I would not get myself developing emotions for anyone and thus not getting hurt at all.

But still... In this process of things, I lose myself, I lose my smile, I lose a lot of things, all in the mind to create a void within myself..

Theoretically speaking, instead of calling a defence mechanism, it is more like a self-destruct mechanism. Not to the extent of death but at least to the extent of me losing my humanity.

I am just a very weak person, I have friends say I am stronger than a lot others, but instead, I think I am weaker than a lot others...

At least they can face their problems head on, I chose to let my heart give up and run away, I did not even dare to tackle the problems head on, I only know how to avoid......

Pain is something I can handle, and it is not because I am willed strong enough to endure it, more like I enjoy it to a certain extent, guess that's why I am SM LOL XD

I know I will probably be blasted by my friends when they read this, but I don't care, I just want to write it out, I won't force them to read, they don't need to read it.

I am unsure what to continue to write liao.... I shall end with a sentence then...

I have been standing behind you for so long, yet you never really did turn back once and look at me as me, but only glance at the surface of who am I, a weakling....

Well better not look also good, cos see further is an even more pathetic person only....

alright thats all

Jya

2011-01-09T15:59:00.000+08:00

Oh hey people XD Well this will be the 200th post for this boring and useless blog of mine haha XD

Well one point to note here, it will be a super emo post so if you cannot take it, you are more than welcome to leave.

I guess for the past few days my emotions are in some kind of a wrecked, I have lost a huge portion of my sanity, I fear if things goes on as it is, I might just take my life soon...

What is wrong with me, I know my heart is so rubbish, I wish I can get into some kind of accident and lose all my memories, maybe from there, I can finally start anew and be less troubled, but such luck is not with me.

I guess I start to feel the strain since Thursday, I lost a lot of my emotions, I became very cold and unfeeling to everyone around me, I replied to every single person with a weak smile or a simple nod, I guess that is a way of me saying, "No I am not ok, but please don't leave me hanging alone." but yet I refuse to openly voice it in fear of troubling the people around me... I spoke with Diyanah and really got a lot of things out of my chest and thought I really felt much better... Well at least that is what I thought....

Then come Friday, I came to school early in the morning at about 8 am, hoping that I would find some people to hang out with, but the cluster was empty... So I basically just stoned there with my laptop and after awhile, I guess the emptiness just got to me and I just broke down there and then. I was crying damn badly for about half an hour and yes sadly I was seen crying, though I really hoped to cry it out alone. To make things worse, I was forcing myself to stop crying because I really cannot go help out with the open house duty in tears, so when I finally stopped crying, I go washed up and prepare to go for my duty.

Throughout the period of doing my duty, I managed to put my mind at ease at least for awhile. Then after that, I went over to help out at the JTC booth at atrium for open house. Then I rushed out to get the ingredients for the cooking session. I returned and continue to help out at the booth for awhile more before heading off to starting preparing for the cooking session. So after all the preparation and stuff, the session started and well it finished quite ok as well. Then after that just cooked for the GLs to eat, and after I am done cooking, I guess I was not hungry, I never eat anything and I just walked to the carpark sat there and I broke down again....

I guess I really suck with all this kind of rubbish...

Then yesterday, woke up early and went to school at about 9 plus. Then was just like slacking around and setting up the place until about 11. The crowd start coming in and we start to get busy, so I was moving around booths to help out. Then around 1 plus, I got into costume and continued to do my job and moved around. Oh, the stage collapsed and apparently someone got injured. I hope he is better now. Well then soon the event ended and the whole JTC got our group picture taken and we packed up. Had dinner at alumni and spammed loads of anime stuff with both Sakus XD Then went home, the journey home was rather long... Chatted with wen xiao and stuff and well she said some stuff and it really affected me...Reached home and stoned around, then I got tired and just as I slept I broke down again.....

Woke up today morning in very bad condition and stuff, it was so frustrating... Chatted with Diyanah and Tricia on MSN half way and I freaking broke down again, like fuck, this is it, crying for 3 days in a row, what rubbish is my emotions getting into....

I know the reason for the tears after some while.... I guess it is about me falling in love with the wrong person, and I thought I would not fall in love with that person, because I know I am in love with another girl... But I guess when I found out the girl has another, my heart just shifted accordingly......

I feel like some bastard..... I suck......

Oh well this is just rubbish.....

Jya

2011-01-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Alright this will be the first post for the new year.

School started today and best part, I ponned the first lecture of the year, LOL school just start and I pon class already, and best is when I was heading to the practical room, I met my lecturer whose lecture I ponned and he just chat to me and did not notice I was not in the lecture at all HAHA IMBA!!!!

I can only say my emotions are going crazy like no one's business. I feel so bad and very stressed, I hope Thursday faster come, because after Thursday, I will be very relieved cos I will have finished most of the assignments that I need to do, and even if new assignment comes in, I still have the weekends to complete it.

Now I am like trying to complete 3 of them and hand in tomorrow, but I cannot freaking do a thing with my parents around, I hate this and cos my room do not have a proper table, I cannot concentrate doing my work, this is irritating, I hate myself for being so fussy and stuff....

Well I do not know, as this much time has passed, I wonder have I really done my job as the Cultural Head of JTC, I seem to only remember slacking and commanding people to do the jobs, well at least for the remainder of this semester, I need to get down and seriously do some work, cannot keep making others do the work, I did not do anything at all, the only thing I do is like, download drama...

I will start doing more stuff after I finish the assignments on hand and make sure this last term is a blast, I need to make alot more memories.... Much much more memories, because I lonely up damn fast....

Oh well I will leave things here, I need to continue to do my assignments.

Jya

2010-12-31T20:08:00.000+08:00

It is like the last day of the year though it does not feel so at all...

Let me go through the year's stuff.

This year is the rockiest years I have, it was even more rocky than years when I am insulted the whole year round.

Reason for that is, I have been brought up to heaven and banished to hell a few times and it is really taking a toll on my body.

My health is also dipping and yes, it is worse than previous years because my emotions are in a whole whirl....

Even as I am typing this, I am in a very messed up state.

Well I have thanked many on my christmas post so I will not be doing any more so here.

I know there would be a few people who I have to apologise to, so if you receive a very personalised message from me, you know I have done you wrong and seeks for your forgiveness in this new year, though I know I am weak and probably anger you further, but slap me if you must to make me come to my senses...

Yes so it seems I will be working during January, says crazy to myself but yes I need the money and I don't care if my health will suffer further cos of it...

I will try to change myself at least a bit in the new year, at least I need to study more than usual.

Alright now, Happy New Year's Eve and shall hope New Year will be nice XD

Jya

2010-12-29T11:26:00.000+08:00

well I guess I am pretty bored here, I am like blogging while I am at Tan Tock Sheng Hospital now LOL XD

Yea very sian have to come for checkup, blame on my stupid back with all it's rubbish problems...

But I guess this is better than not doing anything at home.

I am probably going to be here for like a few hours if it takes long, if I am lucky and it is going to be short, I will be done in 2 hours XD

Well I shall see what the doctor will be saying.....

I am tempted to go arcade later though, but I am not sure where yet though haha XD and I must see if I can find people too XD

For now, my back hurts and I need either a hug or someone to bite, yes I am either a gentle rabbit or a fierce tiger, I am very extreme.

oh well I shall see how the results will turn up.

Why is my body so old sia.... so much problem de....

I hope the doctor will declare I will die the next day then I no need to so mafan le....

make things simpler...

ok ignores my rubbish....

jya

2010-12-26T00:28:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas people XD.

That would be exactly what I love to say to all but after what just happened when I reach home, I am in no mood to say much so.

Let me rant first before I do the christmas post.

FUCK YOU LOANSHARKS. FUCKING DO YOUR FUCKING JOB FUCKING PROPERLY, IT IS MY NEIGHBOUR WHO FUCKING OWE YOU MONEY, SO YOU DON'T LIKE JOLLY COME AROUND AND FUCKING POUR PAINT AT MY DOOR THERE. CHRISTMAS MIGHT BE A SEASON OF GIVING BUT SORRY, THIS GIFT I DON'T FUCKING NEED IT, YOU MOTHERFUCKERS. LET ME MAKE THINGS FUCKING CLEAR, YOU FUCKING DO YOUR FUCKING JOB FUCKING PROPERLY, POUR AT THE FUCKING APARTMENT THAT OWES YOU MONEY, NOT AT THE SAME TIME POUR AT THE APARTMENT BESIDE IT AS WELL, THERE IS NO PROMOTION LIKE POUR ONE FREE POUR ANOTHER ONE, YOU BLOODY FUCKING MORONS.

ok rant over. let's get on with the christmas post.

Christmas eve was awesomely spent with JTC people, went to town go crazy and shops around eats and arcade.

It was a fun day out with Bentoh, Kezia, Tricia, Diyanah, Neko, Jason, Jun, Darren, Kazuo, Wen Xiao, Wan Yi, Sean, Chicken and Beatrix.

After the crazy day of events, Wen Xiao, Darren, Kazuo and I went to Tricia place and yes though we didn't count down to christmas, we still spent it there haha XD Then was a crazy person all the way home.

Today was like went out to watch movie with Beatrix, Diyanah, Jason, Javis and Tricia.

Watched Tron, predictable plots, with painful lights but nice graphics.

Before movie, went to MOF and eat some ice cream first though HAHA XD

Then went to Dhoby to meet neko and walk around and eat dinner at Mos Burger and Windy and Ligen came for awhile before going off then we went home and I saw that bloody shit.

Now for the usual christmas stuff.

Hey guys it is nearly a year, and omg 2010 passed damn fast, soon will be year 3 and all the crap will come in but no, that is not what I will be chatting about. I am just here to thank people who have stood by me. I doubt I will even be here blogging if not for some of you haha so yea I am damn grateful and I will be like thanking people like now so names will appear so watch for your name to see if I am damn grateful to you XD.

So let's see first up whose name(s) will appear XD

BUTAS - haha you guys will always seem to top my list every year, this year is no exception, despite the fact that we did not meet as much but you guys are truly <3, without you guys I will never seem to pull through much, especially pinku, thanks for putting up with all my rubbish and be there for me when I need to cry XD.

Class 2F01 - Guys, though we don't seem as bonded, but we are overall still a crazy bunch of class and for that I am proud to be part of the class and very happy with the time we have spent. Let's get past this remaining term with flying colours.

Vackk - Yea though we seem to be always so stern and sort, I enjoy the time we went out, it is super fun, I am sorry if I am becoming very cold recently but I find I need to isolate myself abit, I fear my incapability to study and need sometime to think....

NPStrings - Guys like though we have been meeting less, we will always be damn awesome, I really enjoyed the time we have spent and it is really fun, I doubt we are any where near done, we will revive with a mark to proof and become a super imba group so let's work hard!!!!

JTC - This is for the general group of JTC people, seniors and juniors, this year has been real fun and I really enjoyed myself in all the sessions, I never once complained about the work I need to do, I am truly happy to help you all do the activities and stuff, it is really worth it XD so let the new year be filled with more happiness and craziness XD

Bentoh - Good friend is good haha, been friends since Sec 1, omg how fast have time passed, 6 years just went by and many years are coming, thanks for all the fun memories and randomness we have haha, and stay happy with Kezia hahaha XD.

Kezia - OMG I only know you this year, like so amazing haha, ok I am being lame, yea we will stay awesome forever, sick buddies unite. we will like try to make more people recover, cos I think I am falling sick soon XD yea awesome memories, I enjoyed the fun times we have, and we will stay crazy always and stay happy with you LUNCH XD

Darren - I never much knew how we came about, but yea, we just sorta clicked up haha XD from barely notice each other from last year to crazy things now haha XD I enjoyed the little chats we have, and I love the crazy moments we shared and I look forward to all the craziness in the new year XD

Kazuo - DUDE, haha never knew how it started but we just seem to be chatting about working out and body physique somehow and it is enjoyable haha XD and we like crap alot too, just all the random and crazy stuff, is super fun and I will cherish the memories, and we will be crazier in the new year XD

Wen Xiao - HAHA although we have been in the same secondary school, we have not known each other until poly year 1 haha, stay crazy woman, but keep your pms in control, try to be more open and you will be happier siol XD

Tricia - Hey girl, stay happy ok, now you are in love, I want you to remember this, insecurity is your weakness, despite the fact you know that you are being loved back, you are still insecure, but I just wish you will remain secure, it is easy just don't think too much, if u need to think alot, think about other things. I will make it clear to you bah, I will still be giving you hugs, but the occurrence will definitely be lesser, stay happy ok XD

Diyanah - Yo fellow Pisceans, we are the awesome horoscope, but I hope you will smile more sia, you are not nice with a sad face, the smile is definitely waiting for you haha XD just know anything wrong I am always here, just call me and I will try to help you, we will be crazy always, promise.

Beatrix - Omg I can't believe you are going australia in a couple of months, you are always calm and cool which is like the sane person of the group, but we can be super crazy too if we want to and WE BOTH MISS GERMANY ALOT!!!! after you australia, look out for more germany quality guys and send me pictures haha XD

Jason - HAHA omg I only know you like a few weeks and dude, you made it on the list, like be damn honoured sia hahaha XD though the time spent is little, but yes, we have our share of craziness haha so I look forward to how much more crazy we can get.

Jeanette - Omg girl we need to meet more, thanks for spending my birthday with me though, it was super super nice and I am definitely touched, I promise I will cook for you again and it will stay there XD so look forward and next year will be more awesome.

Ming Yang - Ah Bu, see I never forget you, though you are a lousy mother, you are definitely been one of my emotional support, because you are putting up alot of my rubbish also and I hope we will stay crazy even in the new year to come haha XD

Eugene - Thought I forget about you? haha that would be literally impossible dude XD though I only know you this year, but you have been a very important source of support for me too, your hugs are very very nice and for that I really appreciate it and be honoured, you are the only junior who made it on the list haha XD but trust me, the next time I see you, you are owing me alot haha XD don't ask why, just know it XD.

That is all I am naming, for those I did not name, it is not that I forget about you but seriously my mind is not working in such a rage mode and I apologise, but you guys know what you have done and I am grateful for even your simple existence in my life so thanks all XD

Now time for the Christmas usual, the christmas emo sentence:

Rain replaced the snow of the Christmas and created a dark atmosphere which freezes one on the outside but warms one in the inside, granting one an isolated entity to hide in to reveal the hidden sadness which torments.....

2010-12-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

Hey people I know I freaking did not update like mad.

I am like having fun now at Tricia's 18th Birthday chalet, the night yesterday was like mad, as it is like simply crazy stuff, everyone was like spamming food, scandals, jokes, companionship and definitely BOOZE!!!!

Well definitely, Darren was like simply trying to get wasted. But of course, he like did not get drunk but he get freaking high and he cannot maintain his balance XD

Well yesterday was simply like awesome. We had loads of surprise for Tricia definitely, firstly was I tricked her that Eugene will not make it but of course, he did HAHA XD. Then definitely it is the cake, but I cannot seem to understand why she did not predict the cake LOL XD

Ok well I am like helping her do the bar and stuff, and seriously I am like loving my job and of course I forget my meals and that cause my low blood pressure to step in but thanks to the Ichigo sweet Beatrix, I recovered and become super high and that is a bad sign, as that is where bad things will start to happen.

The night was freezing, but it was ok initially, until I make a dumb mistake to lie down. If I did not fucking lie down, my back will not ache and I will not scare everyone, though it will be alright if I was left alone for a few minutes, but yes, it is like scary for them.

Well in the end I have no idea who slept and who did not, so I shall skip on that part.

Then today morning I have to leave at 8.30 am because I have to head all the way down to balestier to pray as it is my ancestors' death anniversary. Omg it was like so pai seh today because I was on the bus and I was like falling asleep, then in the end I just moved very large and then I hit an old lady by accident, and the best part, the same thing happened in the train and I hit a younger lady this time.

Well I am like back here now at the chalet, but seriously how much of my condition is still sane I have no idea, I am probably like half dead now, but definitely I am pretty high, but I can be sure I will collapse when I reach home later, I seriously do hope I am like falling sick because I can't stand to see people getting anymore sick already.

Oh well I am probably done now so I will post more if I feel like.

Jya

2010-12-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

It has been ages since I have last blogged, do not ask why I have barely blogged, I am super sian at a few things,

One, my tagboard has been spammed by rubbish and it is really an eyesore.

Two, I somehow dislike pressing the "B" button on my keypad when I am typing urls.

Three, school has been pretty hecticly busy so yea.

And a few other reasons which I shall be too lazy to name HAHA

I just wanna point a few things out here, I shall be busy for now until after the common test, then I will be blogging during the term break, when school reopens in January, I would be pretty busy working, so yea I won't be blogging during January lo haha XD

I will also be pretty busy after January as the final exams will be coming and seriously need my this semester to be good or else I die....

Alright I shall be doing homework soon, ciaos.

2010-11-10T12:44:00.000+08:00

It has been so long since I have last blogged, so now I guess I shall do some blogging since class has yet to start.

Well this past few weeks have been pretty stressful for me, school work just piled up and projects coming, have to worry for upcoming tests and stuff, it is really draining.

To make things worse, I was sick for the whole of last week and it really screwed up most of my schedule sia, and this is just horrible.

But I guess when this week start I am starting to get more things more or less settled and I can get abit more rest haha XD

Some how this is not a place where I will rant cos there are things I don't want others to see, so I leave it to twitter for that HAHAH XD

Well I need to start doing more productive things haha XD

but heck lar now just rest and study hahha

I know I have been blogging very irrelevant stuff, so bear with me, when I got feel and mood the I will blog more productive things XD

2010-11-01T08:05:00.000+08:00

Alright new month starts, and it is on a Monday, what a nice thing haha XD

Well basically, my morning have not really been awesome since I woke up, it is all rush rush rush....

I was awoken by a nightmare and when I see the clock, I had another nightmare, the time was 6.40 am!!! OMG I totally rushed like mad and ran out of the house by 6.50..

Thank goodness I made it in time for the last shuttle bus.

Oh well I feel super sian....

Somehow I don't know how long more can I remain hyped...

I just feel so heck care le, not sure what to do...

Oh well see how bah, after school ends, I will rewalk another route...

I sian until don't know what to write le....

Well for now I will say Good Luck to all JC1 students for your MT paper today ^^ XD

2010-10-22T11:23:00.001+08:00

Haiz..

It has been awhile since I last blogged, I guess my life is getting abit screwy...

I have no idea what I have been doing up till now...

My temper seems to have changed with the weather..

I am becoming more and more short-tempered, which obviously I hate, I want to go back to the times whereby my patience is like insanely high, and I am capable of accepting everything and nothing seems to be able to annoy me.

Now, the slightest thing could sink me to start an argument and I really hate all of that, I do not know how many I must apologise to and how much I need to do to make up for the mistakes I have made, but I am willing to do practically anything to make it up to them, even if it means taking my life if the situation requires me to do so.

For now I am living how I am supposed to, that is to help others as much as I can.

I have lost one route of helping, so I must work harder on the other paths to ensure I can make up to people faster, then I can really truly smile to myself and be happy over it.

What I am truly grateful now is, I have a very awesome bunch of friends, who will support me along the way, though we have our rough times, but we will still smile and fight through the tough times together, for that I am very happy and I really want to thank every single one of them ^^

alright, I need to go, so this is it for now, ciaos XD

【Amagami SS / アマガミSS / OPENING 2 FULL】"Kimi no Mama de" by Azusa +DOWNLOAD

2010-10-22T11:13:00.000+08:00

This is an awesome song, never fails to calm me down. It has a sad vibe to it, but not totally sad as well, it is like abit neither here nor there kind with a very mixed feeling that makes you feel all queasy inside XD

2010-10-07T10:22:00.001+08:00

Well well apparently I have yet to blogged for this month hah XD

well basically now I am busy with preparing for NPStrings camp so my schedule is more or less like packed lo.

though I still try to find time to hang out with friends or else i will look too anti social haha XD\

I went out yesterday with the JTC peeps and seriously I enjoyed myself loads haha XD

for today will be strings again, so well I am still abit tired from yesterday so this is all for now

Jya

2010-09-25T10:28:00.001+08:00

我失去了许多，但也得到了许多，但是真正的问题是，我所得到的和我失去的是否用有着同等的价值。

我知道朋友若读到我这篇篇章，第一个想法就会是，“这个人无缘无故干吗要用华文来写呢？”

其实并没有什么特殊的原因，只是最近一直看到朋友都以华文来写文章，就想来抽热闹。

竟然开头的第一句话就写的如此沉闷与悲哀，我看我得先解释到底发生了什么事吧。

最近也不知怎么了，一直在发呆，可能是因为现在放假所以有较多时间思考吧。但就因为这多余的时间，我又开始想起以前的事，尤其是那些我一直都不想记得的坏回忆。

不知为何会去想这些没用的东西，但是当我开始想的时候，我会想到我几年下来所失去的友情，每当到这我心就会开始有点酸。我知道我本身非常注重这些已失去的友情，但最终都想不到为何当初我会那么傻，去失去它们。

越去想着这些回忆，我也不知不觉地去开始把现有的友情拿出来作比较。虽说我现有的友情都非常珍贵但是，始终都有一点什么东西不在，但一直都不知道什么不在。

若真的要作比较，我真的会讲，我的旧友情会比较珍贵，可能是因为当时的我比较单纯，所以在交友时真的是把自己完全投入近那份友情里，现在，我交友时都带着一个怀疑的心。可能是几年累计下来的伤痕使我无法再那么容易相信他人。话虽如此但这也不代表在我现有的友情里并没有值得我去完全投入的，只是很多都只是表面的友情还未成为心灵上的友情。

好了，我也写了许多，该走了，再见。

2010-09-10T12:25:00.000+08:00

Exams are over!!! The strenuous week has passed, now I given a few hours of rest a day.

Tomorrow is the concert, I am super under prepared for it, then Sunday got another one, I am like going to die haha XD

Then Monday till Thursday is JTC camp, I hope things goes well, cannot afford a screwup

Then Friday if I am still alive, I shall go celebrate Pearly's birthday, Saturday is my cousin's wedding, OMG I HAVEN'T PICKED UP MY CLOTHES!!!!!

Then I will get rest day, then going to malaysia to camp until 24 sept.

After that is a wide spam week of preparations for the cosplay things and OMG 1st Oct is freaking results day, Children's day and we have to see horrible results, GG.

Well pretty busy this hols, no time to work etc, but nvm I will have a day to go out with Jeanette to IKEA cos I want to get some furnitures HAHAH

alright I am done for now Jya

2010-09-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

Ok let me see 3 papers down 1 last one to go. XD

For plants I think I screwed up lo haha the first question I think 20 marks gone le haha XD
then the rest of the paper is doable and die at the same time so i think wun score well le.

For MMB, no need say just die, everything die, I studied and forget everything, how awesome right haha XD

For IMM, semi dead, some questions was a blur so i lost alot of marks

Now is left with CCTA, how will i do, I don't know so wish me luck XD

HAHA

JYA

2010-08-25T11:04:00.000+08:00

Lazing around is awesome haha XD

I am gradually moving out of the english and chinese music area and moving fully into the jap music area haha XD

It has been ages since I last heard english or chinese music playing on my iTunes le haha XD

I will blog more if I feel like it, for now I am just lazing around XD

2010-08-22T15:11:00.000+08:00

Oh wee it is sunday and a pretty lazy one I must say haha XD

Currently my sis friend is over at my place and haha he is a quiet chap XD

But oh well it is fun to have people over now and then XD

Let me blog abit about yesterday.

But before I start I will want to say something to someone.

Matthew, I am terribly terribly sorry for my attitude, I totally blasted your Facebook wall with super crude comments, you do not deserve to feel that much anger from me. I am very sorry I vented my frustrations on you when you did not do much. I was just super stressed yesterday, because I was running around like mad from expo to changi then back to woodlands, I was overly drained....

I know you won't be seeing this, but I just wanna give my apologies.

Alright yesterday was Natsu Matsuri, WHICH IS FUN XD

Well last year was better because last year got CHUHII and CHOYA this year dun have haha XD

And last year I had more things to buy,this year I did not buy much at all...

There is one stupid side to this year's event, it was I find it hard to contact people, many either forget to contact me or they simply did not pick up my calls.

Oh well I don't care.

after the event, I went over to changi to fetch my sis de friend, haha surprisingly, he is super skinny, and I thought he was larger than me haha XD

oh well

things are just funny haha XD

Then head home, slept at 3 and that is all

haha ok i am lazy to blog more, this is all XD

2010-08-21T13:05:00.000+08:00

I had a funny dream yesterday.

I dreamt that I was out with a group friends after exams, then we were hanging out at Bukit Timah Plaza.

Then we were like all having fun as such, even though that place is not very entertaining place.

Then we went to eat pizza hut and really it was super awesome. I was really happy, at least that is what I want to think.

After the awesome lunch, well the girls want to use the toilet, so I just waited by the alley, while the girls and some guys went to the toilet. It was then that I found out, I was the only one waiting by the alley. I started to think a bit, am I really happy that day? I don't know the answer to my own question and I begin to giggle to myself.

It was just at this moment, I saw walk out of the toilet. I never did expect to see you, I do not know what I was doing, but I know I immediately just stood there and just try not to have eye contact.

Well you just walked past me and did not notice me, or so I think.

As my friends came out and we were walking out of the alley, from right round the corner, you called out my name.

At first I thought I was dreaming, but when I turned my head, I saw you standing there, just smiling to me.

I do not know what came over me, I just ran up and hugged you.

After that I woke up, I really hoped it wasn't a dream, but I guess it will always be. Apparently after I woke up, I only remember you being in my dream, I do not even remember the names or faces of the friends I was with in the dream.

But from this I know, you are at least a very very important friend to me, I am touched that you are always there for me and I appreciate it ^^

haha abit emo-ish but hey who cares haha XD

I am at least happier now, cos I dreamt of you and that gave me courage to pull through the day.

Thank you XD

2010-08-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

Ah a peaceful Tuesday night haha XD, yea I sound like a dumb old man haha but who cares XD

I find the days seem to be better,

I emo less

I am happier

But I AM HOWEVER UNHAPPY THAT I AM EATING MORE!!!!

this is a very big problem cos it is super hard for me to lose weight

the extra weight and fats is not doing me justice

My arms are already distorted due to cello, but i dun blame cello for this, i blame myself for having too much excess fats to be converted into muscle which cause this imbalance....

I should starve abit, kill off some muscles...

it is better for me XD

haha XD

ok that is all for tonight

till i have more motivation to blog hah

Jya

2010-08-11T23:02:00.000+08:00

Ah I finally got a new blogskin haha XD so happy xD

Alright, today was a bit of a rush, manage to finish planning the night walk for the camp, now need to Reece and get the movie to view can le haha XD

So I am lazy to post more haha

Shall post when I have more mood XD

tomorrow got meeting

AH!!!!!!!

2010-08-06T14:58:00.000+08:00

People, I need idea for a new blogskin, please provide me with your creative idea and suggest what you think is nice for me XD

For now I found that I am losing interest in English songs, I am no longer listening to them lo haha XD

My playlist is filled with all Japanese songs haha XD

Isn't that just awesome XD

I am now waiting for plants to start, which obviously Dr Malick is not here yet haha XD

And guess what, I failed my CCTA test, haha like so expected XD

But oh well I shall work hard now and for the finals must do super well!!!!!

Ok today is the last day of school and I shall enjoy the last session of JTC for this semester!!!!!

GOGOGOGO!!!

Ok got to rush, teacher is here haha XD

ciaosXD

2010-08-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

Well finally edited my template de details, but oh well, I do need a new blogskin, 1 for each year haha XD so it would be nicer and it is like more than 5 months overdue zzzzz.

HAHA ok I never update for so long haha.

This week is crazy and will continue to be so, I am looking forward to its end and then I can fully concentrate on everything else.

SO PEOPLE WISH ME LUCK AHHAHA XD

alright i dunnoe what to write for now, so that's it from me XD

2010-07-25T12:35:00.002+08:00

I guess the title says a bit..

I am feeling pretty emo every weekend, I do not know why, I think I have a bit too much to think...

I am only cheering up with food, but even so, there is a limit to it..

I am trying to move on, but it will take some time...

I am surviving on the memories of happiness..

My smiles and laughters nowadays are getting faker than before, that I am definitely aware..

My friends will ask me if I am ok, then I will reply I am doing great, but am I? I don't know..

I need to buck up, I know love has taken a toll on me, I need to move on, this is not one relationship which I can handle. therefore I need to move on..

Till the day I find that strength to do so, I need a break now... ok thats all

Jyanei XD

2010-07-12T09:28:00.003+08:00

Alright somehow I find that being in class tempts me to blog haha XD

I find it is nearly a month since I last blogged, but then again also like no one view my blog, since there is no taggers, and my tagboard is like super dead muahah XD

This past week has been super busy and stuff, and I am abit tired but still surviving haha XD Not gonna die so easily MAUHAHAHAHA... but yea it is a bit too much to take at times...

I guess there is more that I need to do this week as I look through my organiser, the whole week is packed with activities...

Tomorrow and saturday is extremely packed, like tomorrow I have 3 events simultaneously occuring and clashing zzzzzz.....

Saturday have 2 events clashing, plus the concert is a worry for me as I am seriously underprepared for it....

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Yesterday was a very very sad day. I spent the morning and afternoon suffering from heart uneasiness, I do not even know the cause of it.... Is it loneliness? Is it anger? Is it pain? Is it stress? I don't know, and I guess I don't care..

Then evening went for the concert rehersal which I wasted 5 hours of my life as the conductor only focus on her students to the point that the whole strings ensemble people are neglected and we did not even practice at all.

From 5-10pm was just random talking and sitting around, it is like wasted my time when I can do more productive things..

Then at home I was trying to talk to most of my friends which obviously, I talked half way and fell into a deep sleep.... This is stupid, just stupid...

I can't wait till the end of this week. Like this I can have a bit more time to rest despite having to rush for my presentations...

I find I am super sick of saying about my love life stuff, thus I am not saying, and will only say when something productive comes out...

Alright that is all for now I guess

Jyanei....

2010-06-20T08:52:00.000+08:00

Ok, today is father's day haha XD

Well which obviously, I am not staying home and celebrating it but going out to settle other things, but will still be back for dinner lo.

Then I am having a lot of designer block, can't get ideas out at all....

this is the sianzors part.....

I am still sick, I do not know why so hard to recover...

Yesterday went to work as some surveyor, just sit there write car plate numbers, so sian but slack job, was chatting with Andrew, who was like 20 plus and he was my partner for that station, haha.

Of cos there are awkward moments but it is ok, since we have own entertainment as well XD

Finish work at abt 10 pm, then go home, reach home around 11 plus, then I stoned in front of com, watch anime, browse fb and go to sleep.

now I am like leg aching a lot, and well sick haha, haven take temperature, but dun think it will be very high so should be alright XD hahaha

ok I am done for now

Janeh XD

2010-06-18T08:37:00.000+08:00

18 June lo haha XD

I had Strings camp on 15th and 16th, so fun, though I was injured abit but it was nice bond with the juniors and the other fellow main ensemble peeps, just sad no cello freshies join us.

I was pretty emo for the past few days, don't ask me why, I also don't know

My chest feel tight and extremely uneasy, I want to cry, but I need to remain strong, this is tough, really tough, I am not sure if I am really up for it, what if I break down suddenly. I cannot let that happen....

Oh I wish for someone to be there to take my tears, please...... it is painful T_T

2010-06-08T09:01:00.000+08:00

One paper down two more to go....

Immunology was not well done, so I am very sad.....

Today's paper is Applied Microbiology, so it is like prepare to die or something.

I think if things continue like this, my mind will really break...

I am on the verge of a breakdown, so let's see how long more can I hold this front.....

2010-06-05T08:15:00.001+08:00

Omg early morning wake up and see 2 new messages in my phone and teared.

Nii chan is really sweet, despite him already in UK, he still message me, like omg, he really did message, I thought he was just kidding about it. And yes I really teared haha XD

Somemore he sent me the same message twice at different time, I think he was thinking why I did not reply to his first message, but I think he forget about the time difference between UK and Singapore, got a big 7 hours gap, so the time he messaged, it is 3 am plus in Singapore and well I am sleeping liao haha XD and I just replied to his message, which well I think he sleeping liao, cos now over his place is 1 am plus haha XD

Well I guess I have to say that him going over to UK for attachment caused me to be pretty sad, so which tells me that I have been emotionally attached and dependent on him to a certain extent, with this, I don't think it will take long before I fully open up to him le bah haha XD

oh well I am just going to just study today and also rest as well haha XD

A little mixture of both cos very tired haha XD

ok thats all

Janeh XD

2010-06-01T13:16:00.000+08:00

In microbiology class now, staring at the screen with a blank mind, haiz....

I do not know why is it so difficult for me to decide on a freaking blogskin, maybe I should change the background back to white haha XD

I am bored in class, whatever teacher is saying, is semi alien to me, i can't seem to concentrate at all zzz....

I want to have more fun in class, later still got one more class then I will head over to crystal lab to ensure the giant crystal will survive through the holidays..

Everyone is telling me to go cut my hair, but problem is, first I do not have a proper hairstyle I want, two no time and three, there is a limit I can cut cos if I change too much, it will not tally with the portfolio pictures.

Oh well best thing is there is no class tomorrow, which means I can rest, and complete plants assignment and then also finish all my studies so at least will be prepared for the exams....

JYJYJYJY

alright that is all for now...

Janeh

2010-05-29T00:13:00.000+08:00

I do not know what is wrong with 2010, I somehow seem to be hearing the word death.

It is like a lot of people's relatives are passing away, yes I know it is a horrible thing to say, but this is what I get from 2010, because I see a lot of friends posting things like their grandparents passed away etc. I feel it is just sad, life is beautiful, yet at the same time fragile. I guess the closest reference I have for life is glass, it is nice, but fragile, sometimes clear, sometimes blur, and it is unique in its own way.

Oh well I guess I feel more sympathetic today haha XD

Alright, today went to Clarence's house with Anna, Vanessa and Kai En. Like finally, went to his house, and is properly go to the house, not there to put things and get out. We went there, so called looked around the house before settling down and start doing Microbio reports.

Then was like take very long to do the yoghurt report, like from 2 pm until 5.30 pm, then did the soil report which was like finish by 6 plus, and then come a email from Dr Forday saying the dateline is pushed back till next Monday. @#$%^& waste my time, I could be doing more work or rest more and at least won't need to so stress and chiong until like that. Then finish interior design homework and hand in fast.

oh well then went to Junction 8 to eat dinner then go home

home is bored.......

alright lazy to go details into things hahah XD

Janeh

2010-05-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

Wee Had a very very very very fun day today haha XD

I doubt I had this much fun for quite some time, met up with nii chan, doggie, samuel, verlene and jeri haha XD it is very rare to meet jeri, seeing the fact that he is not always in singapore, so it is like a very nice opportunity.

Alright so at first was just bowling session and yes I still suck at it and in fact deproved haha XD

then was abit of arcade, then we went to PS cos i need to get a white long sleeve shirt to wear while helping out at graduation XD

then went to central, went to waraku to eat, love the food, it was damn awesome, the ice cream also, I totally recommand the place when u have some cash to spare hahah

then after that we walked around central and then we went to see the flea market there, I bought a gift for Jean there haha XD

then waited at one side of the bridge for jeri to arrive XD

then we went to TCC to drink coffee XD we chatted alot and i must say, jeri surprised me alot, because he managed to uncover my true personality, the one which i hide from every single friend and people i know, but he just got it right on first shot, guess my eyes killed me today haha XD lost control of the ability to hide them hahaah XD

but oh well had a long chat and left at around 11 plus and reached home like 12 plus, now i just wanna say something.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANETTE!!!!! You are now 18, you are legal haha XD can go drink abit liao and then you can start learning how to drive and bang people down on the road hahaa jkjk XD Just enjoy this day and be happy ^^ XD

2010-05-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

Alright been quite a while since I posted an entry haha XD

Been real busy with school, all the ccas and stuff are slowly but definitely piling up with all the tests and quizzes etc.

I have no idea what's wrong with me nowadays, I am somehow losing part of my patience, becoming like pretty easily annoyed, I seriously need to regain my composure, I know that what ever that is affecting my mood will continue to do so for a long time to come, thus I need to strengthen my tolerance and increase my patience even further than it already is.

I guess the weather has taken quite a bit out of me, the alternating sun and rain is causing my body to weaken, ever since the start of this week, I have been getting faint spells and it only increases as the week progresses, which well I will say today was quite often and I think it will only continue to increase.

I just hope I can last till saturday without fainting, that is all I ask for.

Now I will do a bit of ranting.

I guess losing my heart is a mistake I have done, now I feel no love, and all my emotions are like turning into anger somehow.... It is frustrating and I seriously need to cool down and get back to being happy, even if it means I have to wear the mask for my life, because I won't want to show my anger, it is not fair to anyone at all.

My sadness, anger, all my negative emotions, are not to be shown, because of my personality, it is extremely capable of amplifying the effects of all these negative emotions and I will become very devilish, which is not fair to anyone at all.....

Alright I hate to continue so shall end here Janeh.

2010-05-08T22:16:00.001+08:00

tml is mother's day so happy early mother's day to all mothers haha

ok i know I have not been blogging much, but cant blame me I got hell loads of things to do.

I am doing this post to prove i am still alive, alright just dumb haha

ok thats all ciaos

When I look at you haha

2010-04-17T12:01:00.001+08:00

Alright It has been awhile since I have blogged. Let's see now, camp has been awesome, played loads of games and everyone is happy haha. details of camp can be voided cos too imba liao haha XD then after that, the very next day went to film FOC and trust me it is damn stupid cos my vid cam ran out of batt fast haha XD and the new freshies are pretty nice people, and some of them are from my secondary school haha XD. After FOC immediately went to clubhouse to meet violet to discuss abt JTC orientation, then went home to sleep. On thursday went out to watch movie with the JTC people and totally love it, date night is awesome haha xD Then went to the doctor there to pass the medical claim form and went to PS to meet up with the guys again, then we just crap talk walk around, before going dinner at Ishi Mura and then go home after that. Yesterday was a whole day of dance, dance dance haha XD met up with shawn at 11 and we have lunch and then went to fantasia and slack and wait for Hasinah haha XD then we danced a few songs but mainly focus on Gee haha XD cos wan yi not here so we din dance the japanese songs cos she wanna do them but we find not right to do it without her. Oh well then dinner and then many people joined us and we end up doing the cca fiesta preparation and me and lauren just dance then go home lo haha XD alright now ciaos XD

2010-04-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

Wee I am in camp now haha XD DAY 0 haha cos not officially start, still preparing haha, part of the organising people so have to be in schl 1 day earlier haha XD. Having loads of fun now haha XD everyone is so fun haha XD

The day is very well done, we practically laughed and crapped the day through and then eat and plan more haha XD

ok we just finish the arrangement of the rooms, and now slack somemore, ok I am bored, blog more when have more things to say haha XD

2010-03-31T22:07:00.000+08:00

Alright, blogger abit sot sot de haha XD It have been a while since I last blogged, so before I start, one note, I will not be talking about the Rozz and Ris drama, because I am tired of scolding le haha XD

Alright let's start off with.......

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY MING YANG!!!!!!

Now you are old hahaha XD happy right XD one more year before your 1 becomes a 2 haha XD

Let's start off with an event on Sunday, it was Adeline's 21st Birthday, went with Wei Liang. Had loads of fun there, and Adeline's friends are unique haha XD Drank some vodka and also a cup of white wine, first time I got slightly drunk from drinking haha XD then also first time I vomited due to drinking also haha.

It is fun to see people drunk, Derrick and Shaun both got drunk after drinking one cup of screwdriver, like haha so funny, then you see them going a bit crazy liao haha. Then later that night, I slept at 1 am, because I am abit drunk and not cos I do not want to stay awake to play, is cause I am not fully recovered from my surgery. I woke up at 3 am to see them still playing cards, by then, I saw Wei Liang drunk liao, he was like randomly shouting and stuff until the security has to come in to warn us.

Then later it took Dorothy like one hour or something to make Wei Liang calm down lo, she has to pin him down with her whole body, like please lo, she is lighter than him haha XD but oh well she manage to get him to sleep. Then I tried to sleep for awhile, then Michelle stole my blanket and with that I can hardly sleep cos it was very cold.

Then around 6 plus Adeline make everyone wake up cos Yi Chao's phone went missing, then we look around, and we found it under the bed, according to Adeline, the thief is one of her friends, who apparently did similar things before. Then when everyone thought the whole drama has died down and want to sleep, the already asleep Wei Liang vomited in his sleep, everyone just like jump away lo. Then I have to make Wei Liang go to the bottom bed, which I tell you, not easy, cos have order him like mad lo.

Then sat outside and talked until like near 7 am before we returned to the room when Adeline's friends left, then around 8, went out with Yi Chao to get some breakfast, sleep for awhile from 8.40 to 9.10, then have to force Wei Liang to wake up to wash up, as he is working morning shift that day. Took like 25 mins to wake him up lo so difficult, worst than when he first vomited.

When finally everyone manage to get up and out, Yi Chao, Michelle, Wei Liang and I went to flag for a cab to ride to Charly T, on the expressway, Michelle saw the boss car right in front of our cab, like WTF, we are like omg omg omg, what if he head towards, Charly then we gg, but lucky he went to balestier, so we are safe, reach Charly T at only 11.30, Chef Tony was very angry and scolded us.

After that, went with Yi Chao to the bank to bank in the sales for 3 days then went to get food for Wei Liang, before heading home. That afternoon, slept from 3.30 to 8 then in the end still slept quite early haha XD

Then Tuesday was rather sian sian de, I did not do much but slack the whole day through.

Today was more fun, went out with Clarence Soon, to look at gundam and yes I finally got something I want, I got Arios, so happy haha XD1/100 so nice wee.

Then went to school to find Dr New, to discuss about the video editing and also about the shooting for FOC.

Then after all that, went home and slacked. oh yea and I went to pay for my modelling, next monday is the portfolio shoot haha XD nice nice XD

OK now the main thing I want to blog, it is about saturday, HAHA yes yes I know I didn't go in accordance of event, but who cares, it is my blog XD

On Saturday, went out with Raymond Daddy, like damn happy can, it has been like so long since I last saw him, had a great time out. We went to the library cos he want to print some newspaper articles, then later we went to sing Kbox, wee and took picture hehe XD like go out so many times, finally got picture lo.

Then later we went to eat at some thai eatery, initially wanted to go Kushinbo de lo, but too many people, wasted, cos daddy treat de haha XD

Then went to watch Confucius, it was a pretty nice show, I am quite impressed actually. After that, have to rush back to woodlands to meet Shao Quan, Teck Chuan and Leon, to watch movie with them, watched the Kidnapper, and truthfully speaking, it ain't as scary as the making portrayed it to be, cos actually the night I watched the making of the movie but the actual thing not as scary lo.

Then rushed home and fall asleep AHHAHA XD

alright tomorrow is 1st April, April Fool's Day, so not going to go out, shall just slack and not get fooled hahaXD

ok also tomorrow is IS module picking le, need to make sure I get what I want, so alright I am not going to do anything now, thats all

Janeh XD

2010-03-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

Wee I am in camp now hah XD

it is like so fun cos it is like a holiday instead of a camp cos no one is controlling us as our jobs are only to film the camp haha XD

and it is like 2 people in one whole apartment in the loft, is damn shiok lo haha XD

and yea I am being bored now haha XD

ok I am abit tired and shall blog more when I feel like it, so janeh, ciaos XD

2010-03-17T15:51:00.000+08:00

Ah, enjoying the gentle breeze of the afternoon, such a rare luxury in this busy society, thus I am thankful and feeling very much at ease with everything.

Went through a pretty funny day yesterday, cos the day before that I went to catch a midnight show and in the end never sleep for the whole day and morning also cannot sleep cos have to bring my pet to the vet and in the end went to work with only a couple of hours of sleep.

But oh well at least today had nice sleep haha XD

Oh btw I am quite shocked by my choice of music today haha XD, because I listened to Miley Cyrus XD

It is abit weird as I only listened to The Climb and that's the only song which I find is not bad from her as the rest of her song are like pretty meaningless.

So today I listened to a second Miley Cyrus song titled When I Look At You, it is of similar genre as The Climb, so maybe that's why I listened to it.

Ok well have to go work like later so resting alot now haha XD

Tomorrow will bring my laptop down for repair, suppose to be today go de, but since got work so leave it until tomorrow, then after that may need to return to school lo before cca, so I guess I need to contact my cca people.

Ok la so I just make a very late shout out to Melvin,

Hey dude happy belated birthday XD 18 lo haha jia you for your studies and you will make it big when you grow up, I see that you are very hardworking so doing well is no problem de, jia you le XD

alright now more rest janeh haha

2010-03-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

Oh my, friday la, plus it is march already....

Time flies, been so long since I have blogged I seriously do not know wad to write sia haha XD

oh well let me see, went out with part of the class on wednesday for a picnic and games haha XD it was all fun and damn I tell u, I really enjoyed my time there XD. Plus I finally manage to get the kite to go up haha instead of the fail cannot lift off kite le haha.

Oh yea I forget about last sunday, met up with doggie and dan, it was fun XD pool after so long. rushed to meet them after work and well I was not so hungry thus we proceeded to pool after me looking around for rings haha, guess despite not being so hungry I still wanna eat something haha XD, regretted not getting some onion rings from BK lo, but oh well it shall be like that XD.

Pool was lets say normal, cos doggie as usual was the overall winner haha XD

alright moving time forward to yesterday haha, had basic video production training in the morning and after that just slacked at the clubhouse until Kelvin ask me to go for dinner, so u can see I stayed there for more than 5 hours haha XD. but oh well had fun training, but was abit disappointed with my performance, for secret garden, the cello solo part, I played to fast and for the bass part, I did not play loud enough and also the slur was not well done as it was unclear of when I was playing the second note cos it was slurring of 2 of the same notes. but guess I was at fault here, I should have done a more prominent break, cos according to the teacher, cello and violin 3 are not in sync. I did not even notice it and I was the cellist nearest to the violin 3 side, which means I was too focus on my own playing and neglected the surrounding people.

and for the entertainer, the tone that I have played was too solemn for the song, which means I was unable to get into the song, which is fail on my part... oh well it all boils down to lack of practice and also means I did not take the time to go really listen to the song and feel its meaning....

then today was a bit sian cos first thing I did in the morning was to bring my chinchilla to the vet. Well the doctor said there isn't significant problem with it, but ask me to observe it and bring it back for a follow up a few days later, but now at home seeing how active my chin is, I am quite relieve it wasn't sick.

oh well now I am more or less done now, so I shall be ending it here with some words.

Missing you to bits as the seconds past, but shall be linked to you from the half of my heart that was given to you. XD

2010-02-24T15:14:00.000+08:00

Wah it is a Wednesday and one thing, IT IS HOLIDAY!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!! I AM FREE!!!! BUT OLD!!!!!! T_T_T

Alright I am just going crazy, had a pretty crazy day yesterday, went out with a bunch of classmates yesterday, namely Clarence Soon, Arnold, Safurah, JB, Shi Ting, Jesslyn, Jasmine and Hui Yi. We went to Suntec and shop like mad HAHAHAHA, damn I just love shopping XD, went to lunch first of cos, at pizza hut, like wow so long never eat liao XD the food was nice and especially funny with JB and his hydrophobic drink haah XD

Then we walk to New Moon (according to Safurah) alright it is New Look haha XD, the clothes there were nice but expensive sadly. Oh well then we went to many shops like Cotton On, random input of shops haha XD so many I cant remember XD

Then we went arcade, ARCADE!!! Have not go in for like a week le? hahah ok not so long haha but played many games, but the DDR sucks, lousy version, I WANT THE NEW VERSION!!!!!! I WANT MY XEPHYR!!!! oh well, me and my crazy temptations, shall go play later bah XD

Then I went to Toys R' Us with Clarence, to stare and oogle at GUNDAM!!! Like omg, the translucent parts are freaking awesome sia. 30 years lo XD

Then went to Gelare to find them, Tuesday, WAFFLE'S DAY HALF PRICE!!!!!

but oh well I went to get the misty blue float, I miss the fat fat glass though, so much easier to drink from that, and btw my misty blue float is also a hydrophobic drink haha XD so much science XD oh I miss one part, we visited a shop which sells lava lamp and according to many, it is a red blood cell light ahah XD

alright I shall spare the non science people the terms haha XD

Then after that, accompany Shi Ting to go buy her present for her boyfriend with Clarence XD.

We walked around city link and found nth much and went over to Orchard. There we found it haha her presents XD A wallet and a belt XD nice sia haha XD and one of the belt interested me XD auto locker belts are nice nice nice XD

ok then Shi Ting rushed off and me and Clarence went to the basement to search for Pudding cups and after sometime we finally found like I am so freaking happy and now the pudding is in the fridge WEE cant wait to taste it XD

Then took bus home, I reached home around 9 haha quite late but it was a fruitful day so I shan't complain XD

have to head to school later to hand in indemity form and also go town to meet Alvin to get my psp back XD finally can see my baby wee XD

alright this is all bye guys, janeh XD

2010-02-18T12:50:00.000+08:00

Wow so fast it is thursday, tomorrow is Biostatistics paper le, OMG!!!!!!!

But oh well let's do abit of review on CNY XD so first up 新年快乐，万事如意，红包拿来。 hahaah XD

Alright New Year's eve was fun, cos get to eat alot of nice nice food like, yu sheng, abalone, bah kut teh, and many more yum yum.

The first day of new year was spammed with loads of visits and ang paos YAY XD I met many cousins, uncles, aunties and had loads more to eat, damn I feel fatter haha XD

But that very day also labelled as hell for me, cos that very night when I reach home, my asthma came back to haunt me, and apparently, my medication has already expired thus no more inhaler and I have to struggle through the night, and well at least I am still alive, but for the subsequent days until now I am stuck with a horrible cough, which may or may not trigger my asthma again, but let's just hope my asthma don't act up during the exams and I will be alright HAHAH XD

So the second day of new year was all fun haha XD went to bugis to pray and then go to my cousin's house to gamble HOHO, I earned 11 bucks so fun, then in between went to Pearly's house to visit and had fun talking to her.

Later that day went to cwp and visit the butas XD haha so fun neh, so long never see them le, then we shopped around until like 11 then went up to the theatre and watched true legend, and it was a nice show, though the plot can do more planning, then well overall pretty nice haha cos chinese martial arts shows have always been a liking XD

after the movie end, we rushed to watch another one, this time we watch 72 tenants, which was a chinese new year comedy, and I tell u, it is damn damn damn funny HAHHA XD, cos basically, it was abit of remake of an old movie of the similar name and the plot was damn nice, though it was abit short but overall happy.

The movie ended around 4 am and we all went over to shao quan's house to play texas poker and mahjong, like omg so long never play mahjong le AHAH.

Then went home around 6 plus and slept until 12 plus and was forced to go out with my parents to my uncle's house and well just go lo and was there until 5 plus before going home and slacking the day away.

Yesterday was fun cos no visits, thus I stayed home and only went out with my sis to buy the chincillas, food and then go home later and I just rest and try to recover, which is to no avail.

Now I am just in Kai en's house and slacking and attempted to study bstats which well I am on the com haha XD oh well time to get to studying XD...

2010-02-10T12:13:00.000+08:00

Yo peeps I am back to blog for awhile only XD cos exams nearing so need to spend more time to study,I try to make this abit longer than usual so it can hold for a while more haha XD

Alright yesterday was one heck of a crazy day haha XD cos many things happened.

I met Shi Yi in the bus in the morning and we were discussing about the surprise birthday party at night and still now I don't know how much I need to pay haha XD

Then after that was Organic Chemistry Practical Exam, lau eh, so sian lo, anyhow do my carbohydrates question, I forget the glucose and galactose structure, then anyhow guess the OH position, and in the end draw glucose de -_-....

The rest was relatively easier so I won't complain as much haha XD

After that went for cell biology tutorial and weets, I got A+ for my prac exam SO HAPPY!!!!!! must be damn awesome haha XD

then after that end school le, cos no BioStats lecture XD haha, so went with L4A comm people to eat, alright we originally went to Sunset way to hunt for food but in the end rushing over to Bukit Panjang Plaza to eat hahaha XD, on the bus there we were dunnoe why topic change over to our grandparents passing on, truthfully speaking, hearing the bunch of them talk about their experience with it and their bond with their grandparents, I well, felt abit sad on my sad and also envy them alot to be able to have so much time with their grandparents, cos I got practically 0 memories of all my deceased grandparents......Oh well back to lunch, went to the Taiwan Xing Wang to eat, so sian lo, the menu damn limited, but I still manage to get something to eat haha XD

After lunch, no time to shop around cos need to return to school for cca haha XD

On the bus, the 5 of us, Kai en, Christine, Si Yun, Clarence and me, we were plain talking about ghost stories and stuff, it was fun and Si Yun and Christine's reactions are like classic HAHAH XD

Then when we were back at school, Kai en, Clarence and I rushed up to the CBE lab for Crystal growing XD

We were like taking our time to finish preparing our crystals to last through the holidays, and well me being safe, refuse to continue to leave my crystal in the beaker, cos from previous experience, it is a bad thing haha XD

And I finally finish collating the stock list, so happy, one load down, now can send down to the next batch when needed.

After that, went to student club fantasia room to find Si Yun, had to sit down and talk to her properly, and I guess I manage to get through to her abit, to make her understand on the severity of relationship at our age, so my task is more less done, just a few more things to do only XD

After that they went home and I went to Timbre room and sat there with Yong Zu and listen to him play violin, it is like awesome lo. Then after awhile Zhen An came in, followed by Iris, it was hilarious of Zhen An lo, he keep complaining about Shi Yi being late and all and he attempted to call her and she just hung up on him HAHAH XD.

But after some time, Shi Yi appeared and we head off to the bus stop to wait for the bus.

On the bus, we were all crap talking and doing crazy things, Yong Zu and Zhen An keep suaning Shi Yi and we all were laughing like Hyenas haha XD. Then Iris on her Macbook and we camwhored XD so fun and one pic of Zhen An is damn funny, cos he look like frankenstein XD.

And after a long 1.5 hrs ride, we finally reached hougang interchange and met up with Yvonne and Kelvin.

We walked to Kai Ren's house and yes, his room is very de messy lo XD

Then Yan Ling msged Yvonne to tell us that Kai Ren is coming home, then we quickly take the cake and camped in his room. But hor, he took so long that when he came into his room, the candles are alrdy half melted liao lo haha XD. Happy 18th Birthday Kai Ren (random input)

Then cut cake and we eat happily, and Kai Ren's dog keep attempting to escape from the toilet XD, very cute lo.

Then after that, we went back into his room and gave him his presents haha XD he very funny lo, I was like giving him the present and he keep talking like don't want to take lo haha XD Shi Yi was like, if he don't want I want reaction haha XD then we used his mirror to camwhore somemore, and yes this group of peeps are camwhorers XD.

After that, headed home, Yvonne and Kelvin don't know run where, then left Yan Ling, Shi Yi and I to head home, took 161 and just before the expressway, Yan Ling alighted to change bus, Leaving Shi Yi and I. There was literally no conversation through out, cos we are damn tired so we just fell asleep haha XD.

Then when we reached the woodland interchange, we sat down, half awake, and crap talk till my bus came and I went home, reached home, bathe and collapsed.

Today morning was very sian thing, cos I woke up with a very weird feeling in my throat, took my breakfast and lie there to watch animes.

After that before I start to prepare for school, kana diarrhoea and just damn sian, got changed and now I am school, so thus this is the end and I will blog more after the exams XD

Janeh.

2010-01-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

Wee I am blogging during break HAHA XD

Alright I wanna complain one thing, I got injured before work start T_T

It is like a deep cut cos the flesh got cut and then it is like peeled from the hand and dangling off lo haha XD I was unable to stop the bleeding so I have to work while bleeding until I reach home which is like 9 hours later haha XD

The following picture may cause disturbance, viewers discretion is advised XD

The next one is sick too hahaha XD

Saw it in the MRT XDD

Today was a day of presentation

so sian lo, stupid Pcb so much requirements de, like who the hell ask questions about casegrader, everything is like in the book le still ask, like damn idiot lar, waste time and brain cells only....

now in cell bio lecture, waiting for teacher to come, so sian AHHAH

oh i see if got more things to blog then will come back haha XD

alright today got Japanese Cultural Group Leader Interview XD must pass!!! CCA POINTS!!!! jia you wish me luck XD

and I am going to buy the NP T-shirt, hope got stock XD.

Janeh.

2010-01-10T11:44:00.000+08:00

Wee a nice little sunday.

It is tranquil, windy and just peaceful, if everyday is as carefree and nice like today, it would be awesome.

Alright the past few days have been just so crazy, open house is like freaking awesome XD I helped out for all 3 days and damn, I had fun.

Since I have already mentioned about the first day I will jump start into the second day of open house.

Second day started off with studies and of course the most crappish module, communication tool kit, after that was ushering duties, it was so fun, the whole class was doing it and everyone was so hyper and enthu.

Plus I wore the shark costume, everyone love it, and it is so cute hahah XD but it is damn hot in there haha XD.

Then we got free food, the typical free food friday, everyone love it ahah XD

Then after that went to cca and had yakisoba, yum yum, and I have to chiong home to complete costume for saturday.

Last day started off with me rushing the costume with my mum at high speed, and manage to finish it by 12 and I rushed to school for strings practice and then got a couple of new scores, so happy XD.

Then rushed over for duties at LSCT, cosplaying as pikachu, it was so fun and awesome, and I was like dragging, sharkie's tail for quite sometime, then after that, went walking around the school with Hilwah and we were like attracting alot of attention XD and I saw the muttons, so awesome, too bad did not take picture lo.

went home after everything and just like cui le, and just rest the whole day through.

Now is enjoying the lazy sunday and waiting for Vic and company to come and sew costume for SOY cafe woohoo XD haha.

Alright, now I am out for a small cycle wee XD.

btw if wan pics, either msn me for the or go my fb to see XD

2010-01-08T00:35:00.000+08:00

Wee I have a horrible week despite it not ending yet, so basically the week till now is heart breaking and downright horrible.

Lets see, firstly my cell biology did not get A because of my stupid MCQ just that 5 questions T_T

secondly, my biostats got a freaking 50/100, what kind of bullshit is this, and furthermore it is suppose to be 45 only thanks to JB then the extra 5 marks was given to the class or else I am a straight fail le.

thirdly, I did not do as well for my cell bio presentation, but who can I blame but myself haha XD

alright I guess the week aint all that bad, there is still something good, that is from today XD

I finally met up with Jeanette and qiu ju today and we finally had a meal together, it was awesome.

But one thing I want to say, it was damn stupid la, cos me and qiu ju got lost when trying to find Jeanette, we walked around the wrong side of SP and keep going round in circles.

We are finding MLT12 and then this guy just say you go through this door, exit by the other door, and move move move and you will see it le, so we followed his instructions and ended up at LT12A, so we thought we reach le and then Jean msg back and say not there. We immediately become WTF and continue walking a couple more circles and decide to move on the road, which should be something we have done long ago, cos that would be the best way XD..

well in the end we found our way and got to MLT12 and I saw chu yi there, so shock, didnt expect to see her haha XD

so one note to SP students, NEXT TIME when someone ask you where the hell is MLT12 please direct them to the school of business and not to school of EEE cos it is like 2 different places, and LT 12 and MLT 12 is 2 complete different places....

oh well manage to bring Jean and qiuju around NP abit and then send them to wait for bus before going for cca.

alright that is all for tonight, damn tired need to rest, early class tml XD

Janeh

2010-01-01T12:32:00.000+08:00

Alright it is 2010, thus I will start to blog something about yesterday which is, the last day of 2009.

First thing first, the most important event which keeps me on the radio for 10 hours in a day, that is the 987fm top 100 songs

100. Jaeho - Pussycats Dolls
99. Make Her say - Kid Cudi Ft Kanye West & Lady Gaga
98. Secret Valentine - We The Kings
97. I Love College - Asher Roth Ft Jim Jones
96. Paranoid - The Jonas Brothers
95. Sweet Dreams - Beyonce
94. Next Plane Home - Daniel Powter
93. Keeps Getting Better - Christina Aguilera
92. Sober - Pink
91. Get Back - Demi Lovato
90. She Wolf - Shakira
89. Be The One - The Ting Tings
88. Bulletproof - La Roux
87. Hote Room Service - Pitbull
86. Fallin' For You - Colbie Caillat
85. Knock You Down - Keri Hilson
84. A Little Not Too Over You - David Archuleta
83. Please Don't Leave Me - Pink
82. Love Lockdown - Kanye West
81. If Today Was Your Last Day - Nickelback
80. Here We Go Again - Demi Lovato
79. I Hate This Part - Pussycat Dolls
78. Change - Daniel Merriweather Ft Wale
77. Remedy - Little Boots
76. Day And Night - Kid Cudi
75. Know Your Enemy - Green Day
74. Straight Through Your Heart - Backstreet Boys
73. The Fear - Lily Allen
72. Obsessed - Mariah Carey
71. If I Were A Boy - Beyonce
70. I Do Not Hook Up - Kelly Clarkson
69. Breakeven - The Script
68. You're Not Sorry - Taylor Swift
67. Broken Strings - James Morrison Ft Nelly Furtado
66. Dead And Gone - T.I Ft Justin Timberlake
65. Decode - Paramore
64. Get On Your Boots - U2
63. How Do You Sleep - Jesse McCartney Ft Ludacris
62. Stuck With Each Other - Shontelle Ft Akon
61. Halo - Beyonce
60. Celebraton - Madonna
59. No Boundaries - Kris Allen
58. No Surprise - Daughtry
57. Blame it - Jamie Fox
56. Heartless - Kanye West
55. So Close So Far - Hoobastank
54. Touch My Hand - David Archuleta
53. Sexy Chick (actual title Sexy Bitch) - David Guetta Ft Akon
52. Run This Town - Jay-Z Ft Rihanna & Kanye West
51. 21 Guns - Green Day
50. Love Game - Lady Gaga
49. Ego - Beyonce Ft Kanye West
48. Miss Independant - Neyo
47. If You Seek Amy - Britney Spears
46. Mama Do (uh oh uh oh) - Pixie Lott
45. Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson
44. I Don't Care - Fall Out Boys
43. Love Sex Magic - Justin Timberlake & Ciara
42. New Perspective - Panic At The Disco
41. White Horse - Taylor Swift
40. Don't Trust Me - 3Oh3
39. Lovebug - The Jonas Brothers
38. Hoe Down Throw Down - Miley Cyrus
37. Nothing But Your T-shirt On - Shontelle Layne
36. Sugar - Flo Rida
35. 1234 - Plain White Tees
34. Nobody - Wondergirls
33. I Know You Want Me - Pitbull
32. Circus - Britney Spears
31. Whatever You Like - T.I
30. Waking Up In Vegas - Katy Perry
29. Battlefield - Jordin Sparks
28. The Climb - Miley Cyrus
27. Gives You Hell - All American Rejects
26. Evacuate The Dance Floor - Cascada
25. Kiss Me Through The Phone - Soulja Boy Tell'Em Ft Sammie
24. Thinking Of You - Katy Perry
23. Paparazzi - Lady Gaga
22. So What - Pink
21. Use Somebody - Kings Of Leon
20. Good Girls Go Bad - Cobra Starship Ft Leighton Meester
19. Down - Jay Sean Ft Lil Wayne
18. One Time - Justin Bieber
17. Live Your Life - T.I Ft Rihanna
16. New Divide - Linkin Park
15. Womanizer - Britney Spears
14. Make It Mine - Jason Mraz
13. Boom Boom Pow - Black Eye Peas
12. Hot & Cold - Katy Perry
11. My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson
10. Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls
9. Just Dance - Lady Gaga
8. Love Story - Taylor Swift
7. Right Round - Flo Rida Ft Ke$ha
6. Party In The USA - Miley Cyrus
5. Fireflies - Owl City
4. Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It) - Beyonce
3. You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
2. Poker Face - Lady Gaga
1. I Got A Feeling - Black Eye Peas

The list is just awesome XD filled with the best songs of the year <3<3

Alright the next thing I need to do is give thanks to all that have helped me in the year.

First up, the most important person, that would be none other than Iffah. She stood by me all these years, helping me and listening to my rants and of course not forgetting how she makes me jealous with her trip to Japan XD. I want to say a big thank you, if you had not been there all these times, I would not know where I will be now haha, thus you get the first and biggest THANK YOU!!!!!!!

Next up, it will be Jeanette, you are always putting up with my nonsense and also my constant bored messages haha XD, you are never too bored to talk to me, which well is very touching for me, despite your slow replies, at least you bothered to reply me haha XD so thus <3 <3 for you dearie XD

Thirdly, it will definitely be Teck Chuan. You stood up to the most of my nonsense, always facing it with a huh, or just some random laughter haha. Indefinitely I will have to thank you for being the best god brother any person will wish for, because you never back down on me when I needed help thus for that, I <3 you XDD.

Forthly, it will be Raymond Daddy. You have encouraged me through my periods of studies and helped me along the way, no matter what I am in doubt of, you will go all your way to help clear it, I am very grateful for that, you are the best daddy XD and you will always be the best daddy any son can wish for ^^ Gracias.

Fifthly, it will be the butas XD, despite our low contact for 2009, I know that you guys are always there for me and I am really touched by it, being with you guys, make me realize more of my responsibilities and how to be a better person, so I love you guys and may your O's results be wonderful XD.

Sixthly, it will 1F01, yes, you guys are awesome, every single one of you, because I had never much been in a more united class than this, we practically did everything together trying our best not to leave out anyone including ahah XD, I just hope we will stay as a class for the remaining years to come and that our friendship will stand the test of time and be friends forever XD

Seventhly, it will be Wen Xuan and Andrew. You two are always helping me, directly or indirectly, I enjoyed your companies and I sure enjoyed the times we had together, be it the individual meetups or the class gatherings, you two are awesome god brothers and I love you guys ^^

Now there is seriously alot more people I need to thank, but I can't seem to type all here, therefore, for those that have helped me, I really appreciate the help, and I love you guys and a Happy 2010 to you all!!!

SO EVERYONE, ENJOY YOUR 2010

MAY 2010 BE A YEAR OF MORE WISHES COMING TRUE AND BLESSINGS.

2009-12-30T22:37:00.000+08:00

I am in trouble, BIG BIG BIG TROUBLE!!!!!

School starts in like 5 days, and my projects are all untouched!!!

DIE DIE DIE......

My mind still refusing to start, I think when left 1 day then it will activate properly sia, but dunnoe will abit too late or not, cos now, seriously no mood to do anything, despite the aspiration to score well this sem, but something is holding me back.

GRRRRRRR I NEED TO START PROJECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

damn it, need to find motivation....

on a side note, tml is gonna be the last day of the year, shall need to do alot of dedication on blog tomorrow and also the yearly 987 top 100 list XD I love doing this every year, of course I will try to work on my project as well, so JIA YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

Janeh

2009-12-20T20:49:00.001+08:00

I am uber happy XD

after so freaking long of wait XD

I finally got a new camera YAY.

it is Nikon D90, Awesome camera it is, I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!

ok I will post a bit more tml, for now is back to costume XD

2009-12-13T15:59:00.000+08:00

Heya been awhile since I blogged

yesterday was studying abit apart from the morning revision class which I learn little haha

and today, I spent the morning looking through the timetable and scheduling the day's activities.

Just finished cleaning up and readjusting the room, now my room looks different le, so happy XD

well at least I feel it is nice haha XD

but now my back hurts like shit haha

oh well, can enjoy now by having a good bath, and then if damn tired, a nap, or else a light rest before I continue studying XD

ok be happy people

janei

2009-12-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

I need to freaking lose weight, sia la, I am taking too long to lose weight liao la.

If I grow up, I need to ensure my stomach is flat wee XDD

ah nvm I am

bored and

zzzzz

2009-11-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

Alright, I have not been posting for quite some time and I am back haha

Been real busy with my scientific presentation nowadays, it is not easy feet.

OH well I guess I am just glad that the slides part is done and now I am left with the summary, hope to finish it asap cos we have like only 3 days left HAHAH

and notice, I GOT A NEW SKIN XD YAY

I made it while during my breaks in between my study haha XD

not very nice but i can relate so I am happy wee

thats all bye XD

2009-11-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

Kana tagged by Jeanette XD oh well XD people dun just see the pic ar, must comment on the accessories as well XD

Choose 10 pictures from you hard disk which means something to you. DO not explain them. See how many you can understand.

2009-11-14T12:55:00.004+08:00

Belle Of The Boulevard Lyrics

Down in a local bar
Out on the Boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
Is saving you from sinking
It's a long way down, It's a long way
Back like you never broke
You tell a dirty joke
He touches your leg
And thinks He's getting close
For now you let him
Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over.

[Chorus]Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

In all your silver rings
In all your silken things
That song you softly sing
Is keeping you from breakingIt's a long way down, it's a long way

Back here you never lost
You shake the shivers off
You take a drink
To get your courage up
Can you believe it?
Just this once
Just for now
And just like that
It's over

[Chorus]
Don't turn awayDry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on, it's alright
Please hold on

Down in a local barOut on the boulevard
The sound of an old guitar
Is saving you

[Chorus]
Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry you eyes
Don't be afraid
Keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyesLife is always hard

For the Belle of the Boulevard

I love this song, it is so nice and damn awesome, I highly recommend to all XD

Another saturday and for once, I am not busy, so relax and slack, so freaking happy, now is smooth sail, but later will do abit of studying, after all, I am lagging behind in class cos I missed a day of class, thus need to study back.

life has been very up and down I will say, I am seeing loads of drama in life, but sorry, they are secret so cannot say haha XD

Yesterday was Muni's birthday, wee awesome birthday, and I made a bracelet for her, 10 mins done, but I am unhappy with it as I have limited materials, so it is not awesomely nice.

Oh well maybe my expectations too high, so I let you all decide whether it is nice or not XD

here it is:

Give your comments then

heading off ciaos XD

2009-11-05T23:39:00.003+08:00

To Jeanette:

Alrighty, this whole post is dedicated to you and only you alone ok XD

Thanks for being that awesome friend there. You have helped me through though times, always ready to make me smile despite me being such an emo whore hahaha XD

You never seem to stop smiling, even when you are complaining, it is as if you are trying to make a joke out of your rants, it is refreshing and really enjoyable.

I miss lunching/recessing with you and qiu ju and dorothy, we need to get together seriously.

I miss watching how you and qiu ju would 打情骂俏, it was a nice sight to behold.

You are like one of the bestest friends I have throughout my life, though we lame each other at times, but I thoroughly enjoyed your company.

I remember how you would either slap qiu ju or my leg either for fun or for laughs, not really pain for me, but it is fun to see qiu ju's reactions, and you two will 'fight' again XD

So yea, you gave me loads of ideas, especially when I am experiencing mental blocks and stuff, and you helped me with my lousy english XD

So awesome person you.

many <3s

But of cos, no matter how much I love you, you will win, cos you love me more and already drown me in the love AHHAAHHA XD

so yea this is my thanks XD

Loves,

Ken

XDD

2009-11-05T18:15:00.002+08:00

I have been pretty sick for the past few days, oh well used to it, damn used to it HAHAHA.

oh well, things will get better.

I have been saying this sentence like every other day, but it doesn't seem the case, but oh well, look on the bright side of life HAHAHA XD.

well I blog more later HAHA XD

2009-10-22T11:47:00.002+08:00

YOYO, been over a week since I last updated my blog AHHA XD

Well school has started, it is pretty alright, though I am coughing alot, so I guess I need to rest up during the weekends or so, the concert is in like 9 days, have to buck up XD

The new teachers are all fun and I still love my class as normal XD, though some days are very tiring, with awesome friends, everything will be alright XD

Well need to start on work, so I guess this is where I will stop, ciaos

janei.

2009-10-14T19:42:00.001+08:00

Blogging in camp is funs haha XD

Well soon will have practice, just dropping in to do abit of update haha

so the camp is just 2nd day today, so 2 more days XD so happy cant wait for it to end XD

2009-09-28T13:15:00.002+08:00

BACK, Oh god it felt so good sia haha XD

the weather today is awesomely cooling.

3 days of working at F1 drained my life hahaha XD but still it is an awesome experience, I saw many Chiobus haha XD nice sia

Served many dff guests and saw my cousin as well AHHA that was just laughs XD

I loved working with my colleagues, all are very fun people, despite during work time it was really busy and messy haha but we all had fun ultimately XD

alright I am still rather tired, so I shall stop here haha XD ciaos

2009-09-16T01:32:00.000+08:00

Many thoughts have been running through my mind today, firstly was on my job.

"Did I make the right choice of taking up this job? The pay out is not bad despite the work is abit tough, even though I know it is unstable but I am willing to work hard for it, but yet I am getting so stressed over it, did I choose correctly?"

secondly was on my attitude to some friends.

"Am I showing how I truly feel towards some of them? Am I just acting to be friends to some? Am I really true to my own emotions? I feel that certain emotions I show in front some of my friend is so fake I want to puke, but yet why can't I show them what I really feel?"

thirdly was on my own personality.

"Is my personality that compromising? Am I really that adaptable to many people? I don't know, sometimes it feels it is a need to change according, but in the process I lost my true self, so now who am I actually, fake or real? I feel fake, how to be real again?"

fourthly was on my life is overall.

"I don't know what is going on, am I still alive to begin with? Sometimes my existence seems so silent, I can't make a sound, this is so frustrating."

Basically this is the random thoughts that go through my emo day.

Yes I feel my presence is very silent, I feel sometimes it is so silent, it engulfs me in a vacuum that even when I shout, there is no sound.

I feel I am on a paper boat, floating down the stream, not knowing when the boat will sink or whether I will be able to reach an end before it does, I need the extra help, but it is always not available, as the people I seek help from seems to be missing most of the time, this is really tiring, my mind seems to be frozen in the midst of this....

I will end with a sentence:

The journey of life flows like the stream, slow and fast, smooth and rough, but yet once we can locate the wind of our lifes, we will be able to find comfort and face all the obstacles.

2009-09-14T23:17:00.002+08:00

nvm I decide not to talk about the piss off thing, boils blood only.

anyway let me talk about today XD

I woke at 9 in the morning, due the disturbing shouting of my mother and the crying of my sister, she is like some bloody spoilt brat, oh wait she already is one, return to school like want her life like that. damn noisy.

Then I went to school to gym, it was fun and nice to sweat.

Then at around 1 I went for lunch, went to BPP to eat ramen at Bishamon, not bad, just the amount can be more, but after that I feel all my effort in gym has been utterly wasted haha XD

then went to get a cake and went home, slacked at home, worry over phone and now here half dead haha XD

alright thats all janei XD

2009-09-14T00:30:00.001+08:00

FUCKING PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

more info when I feel like it

2009-09-12T21:55:00.002+08:00

HELLO XD

Alright, today is pretty fun XD

I went KBOX first time haha XD yes I know I suck, so long then go KBOX for the first time ahah XD

I went with Raymond daddy and alvin.

Sang loads of songs and I found my pitch is actually higher than I thought it was HAHAHA XD

It is all fun and gay for the high pitch parts haha XD

but I enjoyed myself thorouhgly.

A few downsides, now my voice is abit hoarse, and just now, I coughed out some phlegm and found strands of blood in it, so I guess I over strained my voice box AHHA XD oh well XD all fun and stuff, just lack training nia, no biggie XD

alright tonight gonna sleep around 12, cos tomorrow got to work at 11, so HAHA thats all

Plenty songs in mind to go off with, janei

2009-09-09T23:57:00.002+08:00

I am feeling very blissed today, despite it being boring, but I found loads of warmth along the day, be it just the boring slacking around or even when I do have something to do, I have friends who are with me. So I am very happy.

alright I was watching a movie in the morning

It is called Love Of Siam....

I give this movie a 4/5 stars, I will begin with the downside of the movie, it is a bloody 170MINS!! near 3 hrs sia. with few draggy scenes.

Ok this is a thai movie, but very touching, it talks about how this 2 boys (Mew & Tong) from young were neighbours and they developed a very close friendship, but when Tong's sister went missing, the parents decide to move out.

the 2 lost contact for many years until they wre like teenagers before they met up again, this time, Mew is already a singer of a band. They continued to talk about their past and soon, they found out that they feel more about one another.

This was then found out by Tong's mother who tried to break them up, as Tong's family is going through a tough time.

so oh well this is a gay movie, but it is very touching and despite a long screening time, I will still say this is a worthy to watch movie.

so oh well nth to do, so thats all janei XD

2009-09-05T18:06:00.004+08:00

I am back from camp XD YAY!!!!!!

alright, techinically I am back yesterday hah XD but was so darn tired, I just don't have the energy to blog lo haha XD

Camp was rather fun, as the activities were planned quite alright, but the down side was first day's activities is abit messy XD

well I lazy post pictures haha XD so oh well XD

I am in love with Love Drunk by boys like girls, it is an awesome song and it speaks much of my life haha XD so I can relate haha

so I am tired abit now, ciaos XD

2009-08-29T00:48:00.002+08:00

I am bushed XD

haha

weird way to start a post I know XD

Oh well, had fun today XD, loads and loads of fun ^^

First and foremost I want to thank all that have turned up today ^^ It made my day, I am really grateful.

Was at walking around Plaza Singapura at first, then I popped by the arcade at the mrt and guess who I found, haah I found Kaien XD coincidence sia XD then played time crisis 3 with him until it is time to meet the rest, we met them at the other arcade that is in Plaza Singapure.

Followed up, we then went to the Cathay an met up with JB and Arnold. ZC joined much later.

We watched the movie, The Proposal.

The movie was very funny, I was laughing very hard throughout, of course it has some very touching scenes as well, and I enjoyed the company of friends. ZC was teasing JB throughout the movie XD.

As said, comedies are meant to watch with many, cos you all can laugh together XD

then wen to randomly walk around, and played pool xD

It was fun, and I found, well I need to practice more le haha XD

After that, went to suntec and we went arcade again hahaha XD I was playing basketball XD it was fun, but my skills drop lol XD

Then went dinner at Just Acia, I find the food there is pretty nice, and it is reasonably priced, free flow of drinks and ice cream also sia XD

then went home.

While I am on my way back, my mind start to enter that state of the wandering.

I am starting to think back on my life, about the people I have hurt, the people that have hurt me, the people whom I have helped and the people who have helped me, I suddenly feel so indebted to many. My mind just blank there and in my desperate strugle to get back my thoughts I did not realise that a few drops of tears have escaped my control and rolled down my cheeks.

It felt warm, so I guess it as tears of gratefulness. but aferall I am happy now ^^

alright janei.

2009-08-28T00:45:00.002+08:00

I am slightly confused, she is totally ignoring my sms today, I don't blame her though, but oh well, that will be some fact I must accept.

I was reading on daddy Raymond's posts just now, and it just triggered some of my memories, It let me think back to the days of rejections.

They are painful, heart wrenching, but my tears never did flow, I am quite incapable of crying during that time, but let me see if I can remember the most hurtful rejection line I got.

If I remember correctly, it goes like that, she called her friend to call me and her friend said this, "Hey Ken, you are a great guy, but she is not ready for it yet, just don't bother waiting, alright bye." And just before the phone went dead, I heard laughters coming from the other side of the phone. I stood by the phone in a daze for more than a minute before coming to my senses. At the point I came back to my senses, my face felt wet and warm, 'I am crying' that is what I thought to myself.

I kept smiling and tried to wipe the tears off, but they won't stop flowing, so I am not given a chance, I had to just sleep as I do not want to let my parents find out, I hid under my blanket and continue tearing before I fell asleep.

How long I have cried, I have no idea, it seems like hours and hours.

ok my point here I guess is, I am expecting a rejection answer from her. So, either way, I am going to be highly affected....

2009-08-26T19:26:00.003+08:00

OMG EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!! HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BREAK!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!!

Ok, let me review the past few papers.

Firstly, Mathematics, it was relatively easy so I am quite happy, but Ms Tan says that got quite a number did not do well, so I am quite worried here...

Oh well putting that aside, the next paper is Microbiology, so let me see, this paper is a killer as expected, but I tink can pass so I am not complaining ^^

Now final paper is, yes you guessed it, the long awaited INORGANIC AND PHYSICAL CHEMISTRY MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

I was freezing while attempting the paper, I tell you, the aircon is bloody

-10202949579349294296397 degrees or something, I was shivering until I can die. As soon as I complete the paper, I check through once and I run out of the exam hall already XD

After the paper and all, I am finally a free man, I feel I can just soar into the air, float amongst the clouds, shout at the sun and drop to the ground like a meteor and land with a big bang, I am just too happy XD

So oh well, I told her about my thoughts today, I did not manage to sound less harsh, my tone is still serious and relatively on the harsh side, so I can only stand here and say,"I'm sorry, I seriously do not know how to put my words across in another manner."

Oh well this will conclude my day XD

I will end off with a simple sentence:

It is the little imperfections in life and people that makes this world so memorable and mysterious.

2009-08-19T09:30:00.002+08:00

exams are coming XD omg so nervous XD

oh well, monday was a blast, went to darling's house, oh man, his house is big sia XD and damn nice to study in lo, no worries tomorrow I will go again and this time I make sure he studies. okok I noe it is weird to say my darling is a he, but haha he is just an awesome friend, I call him that out of fun, so no romantic at all XD

then then, I am so gonna fail my IPC and Microbio lo XD study so much and I nvr get it haaXD

oh well, slowly bah XD maybe I will get it soon.

then hor, yesterday, I intended to study in schl until 9.30 de, but sian, kana fever, had to go home by 6, then I was at home slacking until 11 then go and sleep, woke up around 3 am to find myelf on the floor, climbed back up to bed and sleep until 7 haha XD ok ok I know I am a pig haha XD

so well, I will be heading to school soon, cos recovered until quite ok le, so no problem le haha XD

2009-08-09T22:45:00.003+08:00

ok back to blog, shall say one thing

HAPPY 44th BIRHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!

ok I am not patriotic, but basically it is a nice country, I enjoyed my 17 yrs here and many more to go haha XD

today is a very nice day, cos the weather has been rather nice and not killing

and I am just plain slacking.

but the worst part is my hair is bloody ugly now,

call the uncle cut sides and leave my fringe and back alone.

he go cut my back until short and then go layer my fringe, now it is so thin.

then the sides, he just cut until like the top is like puffed up, DAMN DAMN DAMN UGLY!!!!!

oh well shall not think of it

2009-08-09T09:27:00.002+08:00

I woke up in the morning with a back ache as usual XD haha but oh well, used to it, currently abit feverish but still I am hyper haha XD

wanna go cut hair later, but mum is not home, so oh well, have to wait then XD

the past week is abit hectic, but then all ccas are finished, so well time to pia studies le, need to get a good GPA for this term, no slacking, but i am really drained, shall spend the weekends to recharge abit more then XD

I am still happy overall XD afterall she is always around so I am smiling more, so it is all fine XD

oh wel i will blog a while later, need to get breakfast XD

2009-08-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

I dunnoe what is wrong with me.

I understand that loving is nothing wrong, as long as she is happy I will be, the logic is this simple no?

I am helping a good friend get a girl he like, I am doing something good what. Of course I know I am hurt in the process, but I now I am alright, I have awesome friends, like darling, daddy john and daddy raymond, maddie, sky, andrew bro, JB, chris kor kor who is currently missing and many more. I will get through this fine.

But why am I so flustered, I understand I helped Arnold cos well, he just broke up and I know if I were to just snatch the girl from under his nose, I will be like back-stabbing him, he is my first friend in Poly, he is an important friend, and I do not want to lose this friendship.

Many said I should just go for it and confess, there will be some who sits on the fence, and also some who respected my decision and asked me to just get over the girl.

But well I am just, well... I dunnoe, disturbed?

My mood is very swingy, I am hot-tempered now, I snap for no reason, I am like just a jerk right now.

I don't know what to say, sorry? thanks? get lost? just die? I don't know, my mind is clouded, just clouded, tears wun flow, means I am not sad? but the heart hurts, doesn't it? I just don't know.

It takes more time I guess, probably I need to think through this, as JB said, I need to know what I want to do after the weekends, but I am just too tired to think now...

well i will stop here.

a simple line:

The flame on the candle fades, as the last drop of wax drips onto the ground, just like the sparkle of the eyes fade, as the last drop of tear flows down the face.

2009-08-01T09:25:00.000+08:00

Getting sweeped by this love thing again, I realy am starting to hate myself.

What is the point of falling in love, it is tiring, painful and a never ending process of pain, I am repeating my love life so many times I am disgusted by myself, it is high time I stop and just die....

well just wanna rant.

2009-07-10T00:10:00.004+08:00

hey I hav not been blogging haha XD

welll

just wanna rant abit lo.

for this week, I have been crying everyday.

reason being, chris kor kor is ignorin cos, well lets just say I was being too stubborn, I wanted abit too much attention bah, so I pissed him off considerably and now he is ignoring me

I am very saddened by this fact, I really cherish this friendship, he really is like an older brother i nvr had, so I really loved his company and the time spent, but if things are gonna end here, I am seriously at lost, i dunnoe what I will do....

this is very painful T_T

well thats all
janei

2009-06-15T12:11:00.000+08:00

it is finally the holidays for me XD

well I am just bushed la hahaXD

the whole weekend was spent streetfest and filming lo ahha

so well It is nice and

my back hurts

so I shall end here

janei

2009-06-04T00:49:00.000+08:00

ok short post haha

the past weeks in school had been hectic like mad, but well I survive it XD

now is the final week, the CT POWER!!!!!!!!! CHIONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok thats all ahhaha

2009-05-23T07:19:00.002+08:00

Wow it is like ages since I last blogged haha XD sry sry XD school starts and all the work starts piling like mad.

So well let's see, poly started, my classmates are an awesome bunch of people XD we had fun everyday and also stress as well haha XD

Microbio is killing, IPC is sleeping, Physio is manageable, Maths is just the exercises to do that is troublesome XD ahhaha XD

well IS, CATS is killing, S&W is simply awesome XD

my results now is still no stabalise so I am abit disappointed haiz.....

so well this is it for now XD

April neh XD SYF

2009-04-09T10:45:00.001+08:00

April post XD SYF wo muahaha XD

Great, I injure m hand the day before thee SYF….

Lookie, sleeping actors on the bus, with the exception of a few haha XD

ACJC got lousy carpark XD

The sec 1s which I am in charge of haha XD

The girls, from front to back: Adlyn, Ifa , Haneesa. Well Lesha dun wan take picture.

The boys, From front to back: Jun Kiat, Hoe Chin, Shao Wei. XD

Hoe Chin, I am very kind not to put your other name here ahhaha XD

well the performance is overall alright XD

so well this is all Janei XD

MORE MARCHIE XD

2009-04-09T10:34:00.001+08:00

Ok it is like ages since I last blogged or what so ever and now I am blogging some march de pictures hahaha XD

ok here is like on 29th March

It was 6C’04 gathering XD after so long a gathering hahaha XD

So well we went to Novena and hahaha we stayed at the station there discussing about where to eat and finally chose Fish N Co

Hahah my SIMPLE pasta, which is like the last to be sent, so SIMPLE sia.

HAHAAH Kwan Hong and Geneson’s wonderful seafood platter for 2 XD when they finish, still got sotong there hahaah XD

Group Photo XD fun neh XD hahaha, Andrew complain his neck is breaking cos Leonard jumped on him XD

Then after that we go to City Hall and we go play pool XD and walk around abit, then we go to Ang Mo Kio and shop around, then everyone go home hahaha XD

Thats all Janei.

2009-03-21T16:37:00.001+08:00

Well My birthday have been over and I haven blog yet hahah XD this yr was one of the best I guess haha XD cos I celebrated my birthday 4 days in a row.

ok I let the pictures talk then.

17th March

this is from pizza hut, yum yum hahaha XD

18th March

well I made ginkko nut soup. plus oooo whats that got Shin Chan's favourite food hahaha XD well the actual day was nice, teck chuan, gek ling and shao quan came over. we played abit until 11 then they have to leave le, but it was awesome ^^

19th March

my aunt brught me to eat jap buffet yum yum, her are some pics XD then watch the movie mall cop, it was awesomely funny, I give 4 stars ^^

20th March

I made this horrible looking thingy, it tastes bad too ahhaha XD

Well Pearly, Wei Liang, Wei Le, Brandon and Shao Quan came over for a short while and they brought Chiffon cake, yummy, bu wei liang stuff the cake down me haha XD which makes me abit queasy hahaha XD but well it is alright, they left after awhile and thats about all the thing. Now for a list of thank you,

1. Jeanette and Dorothy: THANKS, you are the first on msn to wish me happy birthday

rock on, lets go out and eat sometime.

2. Gek Ling: You are the first to wish me happy birthday by sms XD thank you ^^

3. Hoshino aka Doggie: You are the first to wish me happy birthday on stomp XD ha XD Thanks.

4. Kitty: You are second to wish me happy birthday on stomp. I appreciate that you stayed up

late just to wish me happy birthday. Thank you ^^ *hugs*

5. Pearly: Shiro, you are second to wish me happy birthday on sms, I know you also wanna call

me to wish me happy birthday but I did not pick up my phone, but on phone you still

first hah XD Thanks.

6. Amanda: I appreciate you still remember my birthday haha XD thank you ^^

7. Tat Yan: Haha you add me on msn on my birthday, so accurate XD Thanks XD

8. Hila: Thank you ^^, let's go pool yea?

9. Raigon: Thank you XD even though you so blur whose birthday it is haha XD

10. Viva: Thanks for your wishes ^^ *huggles*

11. Andrew: hey bro, glad you didn't forget haha XD or I sit on you hahaha XD THANKS

12. Wen Xuan: Hey bro, though your's is late, but haha XD THANKS

13. Melvin: Thanks XD You even announce in your blog so kind XD

14. Sky aka Brandon: Thanks XD haha see you in school ya SENIOR hahahaha XD

15. Teck Chuan: I am grateful you took time to visit me even with your hectic schedule.

16. Shao Quan: yo teddy hahaha XD *huggles huggles* you owe me many hugs haha XD thanks

17. Teddy: Yo, Jia you with your exams, you can do it de hahaha XD and try to stomp often haha

18. Fanny: Thanks for you sms XD

19. Sarah: I was shocked by your sudden pm on msn hahaha XD thanks must teach me jap ar

20. Claudie aka Jess da jie: didn't think I missed you bah haha XD thank you ^^

21. Wei Liang: sry put you until 21 haha XD but you still are not forgotten, rock on, let's go jap

buffet XD THANKS

22. Sean: see I told you, you are here hahaha XD Thank you di di ahhaa XD though I have to

remind u abt it haha XD

AND A BIG THANK YOU TO WHOEVER I MISSED, I AM SORRY JUST TOO MANY TO THANK LE.

now one I must separately thank, that is

IFFAH!!

THANKS, YOU ARE THE FIRST before anyone hahaha XD you wished me happy birthday 4 days before my birthday hahhaha XD really appreciate it, let's go out sometime to shop hahahaahah XD

ok that's about all le

janei

2009-03-16T23:02:00.002+08:00

Recently all so bored, leg very pain ahhaha XD

I shall blog about what hapen on saturday then hahaha XD

Woke up real early in the morning, then I met up with gek ling and we went to Yishun JC, I passed Iffah her pressie, thank god she liked it ^^

OH YES! I met Gena, my primary school classmate the sia, the world is so small sia XD.

Well this is the ticket Iffah gave me ahaha as a return present, so it is exchanging gifts on White Valentine's Day.

Group Photo!!!! ok position from left to right : Irfan, Ernest, Iffah, Gek Ling, Me and Nasir ^^

After that In the afternoon, I went to the hospital with Gek ling and well, she has to go for check up again, then went back to causeway to continue playing DDR.

Then I took the bus to Hwa Chong JC to watch Wen Xuan's finals XD he rocks I tell u muahahaha. of cos I thought I got lost but in the end, I alight at the right stop hahaha XD

hahaha here is the video of Xuan's performance,

Very nice right ahahah XD well of cos I lagged so I videoed it late XD, but I think he rocks, the judges are blind for not voting for him.

I know the video very blur, so tada, a picture of me and Xuan haha XD, he very cute right XD Girls start lining up bah, I intro u all to him XD

well yesterday and today very sian nth to blog.

The March

2009-03-10T20:39:00.001+08:00

March haven’t post yet hahaahah XD

2nd March

Pepper Lunch YUMMY!!!!!

Haha someone left the fries in the handryer lollers XD

My sis caught a stitch hahaaha XD

following days were borrowing so skip skip hahaha XD

7th & 8th March

My father jolly well thinks I am not a student zzzzzz. go tick my occupation as others.

Cute kitty cat ^^

Yum Yum bubble gum ^^

Jellyfish wo, so big neh.

We are taking an Ah loong boat XD

This is an awesomely beautiful house ^^ love the design sia.

Oo Rezab? wth hahahaah XD

Wah got to shangirila restaurant to eat, such a rude restaurant. Shangirilla aka Siang Kio Lih Lai

Nazi sign, can see bo?

This cup of coffee is called madrain peels and it is temporary out of stock hahaha XD

Green cotton candy, Iffah envy me muahahahaha.

Onigiri, FINALLY NOT TUNA!!!! my sis de still in fridge hahaah XD

Well Nth much le muahahahaaha.

Janei

Tears

2009-02-28T00:07:00.001+08:00

I no longer control my tears.

I shall let them flow if they want to.

I have been rejected by the person I sought help from, my time has stopped from then on.

If the remainder time is meant for me to think things through and let me prepare for fading, then I shall make full use of it.

this shall be the final waltz…………

Quiz

2009-02-24T10:03:00.001+08:00

Ok I am very bored in the morning haahaha so went to do a quiz

How sexy is your name?

Beyond very very very Sexy!(600+ points)

Wow! Your name is beyond very very very sexy!

Fun quizzes, surveys & blog quizzes by

This is so lol can, my name is beyond very very very sexy, as if. I am beyond very very very turn off lo hahaahahah XD

ok thats all for now

Message in post lol.

2009-02-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

Dull life, so sian lor, everyday like nothing to do, BORED!!!!!! I wanna do something. ok I have been blabbering about this for so long and I dun seem to be bored of it.....

Even my friends will soon get bored of my keep saying this lor.

Anyway, my day has been so wonderful that I simply want to sleep through it muaahahahahahahahahahaha

Then again, sleeping seems ike such a nice thing, for a pig like me at least muahahha

Haiz, I am getting fat fat fat, so fat and round, I feel like a roly poly, then soon Ken will be a ball of carbos.

I am starting to crap muaahahahahahahaa, well just plain bored yea, so this post is solely for me to crap muahahahaha.

So let's see, today..........

I went to nowhere but home home and home, except morning got go jog jog abit.

Now I so not tired, still so active, I think my body sot sot le.

Everyday like that, so bad sia, soon I really become fat pig man.Fulfil my legacy as a buta muahahahaha, aka fatest buta muyahahahaha.

Very sianzzzzzz, dunnoe what to write liao le.

I think I shall randomly write for a few more sentence.

Then go turn in for the night lolololol.

Anyone who is reading this, I know you think I siao liao le.

But trust me, I am not siao just bored to death muahahahahaahahah, with more muahahahahahahahahaha.

Laugh along and go crazy with me muahahahaha.

Everyone bye bye, go off liao. the end.

Walk Away

2009-02-16T22:52:00.002+08:00

1. Put your iTunes/Imeem/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY?” YOU SAY?
Ever Ever After – Carrie Underwood

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
爱转角 - 罗志祥

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
I’m Yours – Jason Mraz

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
The Best Damn Thing – Avril Lavigne

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Sanctuary – Utada Hikaru (sweats)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
A Thousand Miles – Vanessa Carlton (I am way behind them haha XD)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
会呼吸的痛 - 梁静茹

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Desperate – Daphne Khoo (I wonder)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
1000 words – Jade ( wow)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Silent Destiny – Orb Hunter 4 (my life is rather quiet haha XD)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Monsoon – Tokio Hotel (lol I am gonna be the wind woohoo)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Angel – Natasha Bedingfield (awesome)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Light On – David Cook

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Complicated – Avril Lavigne (so true)

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Life Is Like A Boat – Rie Fu ( hmm if life is a boat, will sink)

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
珊瑚海 - 周杰伦（drowned Oo?)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
千年之恋 – FIR ( lol i regret a thousand yr love)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Rooftops and Invitation – Dashboard Confessional (haha next time dun send me invitation card, i will laugh)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
This is Me (Acoustic Version) – Demi Lovato

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Take A Bow – Rihana (hahahahah)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
My Happy Ending – Avril Lavigne (I din know I want a sad ending)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Walk Away – Vanessa Hudgens (HAHAHAHHA)

2009-02-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

Hi People.

To start things off, Happy Belated Valentine's Day.

Yesterday I was quite tired. I spent 8 hours baking cookies. Wonderful not? Well cos my chocolate gave me alot of trouble, by refusing to melt.

Well in the end one bar melted, so I did finish the cookies.

Initially, I wanted to go take a nap before going to Pearly's church for the event, but in the end it was too late by the time I am done.

So I quickly got changed and went out.

I slowly strolled over to Quan's house to pass him a box of the cookies. When I was there, he was asleep, so well, didn't get to chat, just left the cookies and left.

Then I went over to Pearly's church. Met her and we waited. Soon after, Teck Chuan joined us.
Of course, Teck Chuan did not forget to give me a valentine's day present XD He gave me a big apple. It was awesomely nice. Well, actually anything Chuan give me is nice haha XD

So the the event started. With song, games and food. the kebab was scary. so well....

After the event, Pearly, Brandon, Chuan, Luke, me and some other friends of Pearl's went to Causeway and we played arcade, until about 11++.

In the end, Chuan and I were the last to leave.We went home then. I was happy throughout the day, seriously.

I guess it is a unique type of happiness that is not easily found in the daily lives. I totally wished time could stop there and then, I just wish to indulge in the same time again.

Well I guess I can indulge that moment in my memories then haha XD Time to look forward.

Today was abit dull.

My father went to the hospital due to chest pain and he was discharged at 8 pm.

the rest of the day was done doing nothing.

I guess I will put up some notes to people.

Firstly, to an extremely confused girl.

Don't lie to yourselves no more. I can see very well that you are very concerned about him, but yet you and him are going through this tough time. Don't torture yourself anymore, best if you go clarify things with the guy, even if he refuses to change back, give yourself a chance and accept the new him. Isn't this what being a friend is about, accepting your friends for whoever they maybe? So don't brood over it and make the appropriate decision.

Well the next one will be to my close friends who know about me.

I am happy with the life I am living and hope to live it through with a smile. Yesterday was a charm for me, the celebrations and time I spent will be deeply etched in my mind. I will not know if I am able to celebrate or have any plans of celebrating valentine's day next year, but at least I know I have spent a happy one this year.

Keep smiling people ^^

Kuon

2009-02-12T18:33:00.001+08:00

Eternity.

This word holds a nice meaning to it.

But how many of us actually stopped to ponder what this word really means to us?

Today morning, I unknowingly came across this word and it made me wonder, what does eternity means to me? Do I really take the word for the literal meaning it holds or is it something else, something more meaningful and closer to the heart?

Over a nice hot cup of rose tea, I let my mind evaluate the meaning of eternity to me.

Eternity, by said means forever. But to me, it means abit more. Once I see the word eternity, it isn’t love that comes to mind, instead it is the very thing in our head, memories.

As life goes, love does not last forever, there is no eternal love as it will disappear as you fade away. Friends are also not for eternity, they definitely will not be buried together with you when you pass away. Memories on the other hand, it lasts forever.

Memories stays with us forever, when we say we forget, it is not that a particular memory is lost, instead it is just not vivid within in our memory. Once we go back and look and slowly think, the memory will find its way back to us.

Even when we pass on, our memories will still continue to live on in the minds of others who share the same memories, so it will continue on in this manner.

Well I don’t believe in eternity as I know that everything will have an end, even if by said something will take tens and thousands of years to disappear, it will still be gone, thus eternity does not matter at all.

Yet believing that eternity exists, seems to allow us to work against our respective goals more enthusiastically, so I guess it is a nice thing XD

Well I am crapping already, shall end here like that.

Janei

Quiz

2009-02-11T10:30:00.001+08:00

Lol I got tagged by Jean to do a quizzie, though this quiz looks awesomely familiar hahaha XD

1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
My cheek?

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
Confused.

3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
hmmmm…. the BUTAS!!

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
To a certain extent yes. oh god this is so SS

5. Would you ever donate blood?
Why not, unless I got some disease or whatsoever.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
Wanna make a guess? I had loads of friends who is of the opposite sex XD

7. Do you want someone dead?
Why would I?

8. What does your last text message says?
Its pretty long, some valentine’s day msg.

9.What are you thinking right now?
When is my show loading finish…

10. Do you wish someone be with you right now?
Why not, I could use the company.

13. Is someone on your mind right now?
Always. and dun ask me where is 11 and 12, when the quiz came to me, these 2 questions are already missing.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
GK

10 ppl tagged to do this quiz. (whom can't do, because of my blogskins, but I'll just do the numbered sections anyway)
1. Shao Quan (seeing that ur blog is dead for so long hahaha XD)
2. Teck Chuan ( though i doubt u will even bother coming to my blog hahaha )
3. Pearly (something to get ur blog out of ur daily emoism)
4. Jeanette ( hahah back at you XD)
5. Wen Xuan ( but I guess you barely comes to my blog XD)
6. Iffah ( haha something for you to do apart from your daily stuff)
7. Andrew ( bro you complain bored at work, I give you something to do haha XD)
8. Hila ( something for you to play XD)
9. Wei Liang ( seeing you bored I shall grant you with some quiz XD)

10. Adwin ( I am plain bored ya)

15. Who is 2 having a relationship with? (Teck Chuan)
ahem ahem I wun be bad to reveal his secret so I shall say someone. AND his HOMEWORK!!!

16. Is 3 a male or a female? (Pearly)
Female la dui

17. If 7 & 10 get together, will it be a good thing? (Andrew and Adwin)
OMG GAYNESSS. ooo both As haha XD but in the first place, they dunnoe each other XD

18. What is number 1 studying about? (Shao Quan)
Anything about Mathematics and of cos his other subjects.

19. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Not too long I presume, at least all within a month, except Adwin whom I have not spoken to in years.

20. Is number 4 single? (Jeanette)
Ahem, can I say no? haha XD okok I will say yes XD

21. Say something about number 2? (Teck Chuan)
His innocence is beyond cure which makes him awesomely cute XD

22. What do you think about number 3 & number 6 being tgt? (Pearly and Iffah)
WHOA LESBIAN THIS TIME. well this is utterly unbelievable.

23. Describe number 9. (Wei Liang)
He loves his computer too much.

24. What will you do if number 6 and 7 fights? (Iffah and Andrew)
This is ridiculous, they don’t even know one another.but would love to see it though ahaha XD

25. Do you like number 8? (Hila)

Why not, she is like a sister cum mother to me hahaa XD

Created by Zhixian to prevent number 5 from being emo)
26. Does number 5 have a Passion card and Popular card? (Wen Xuan)
Popular card perhaps.

Hahah that’s about all for the quiz, sry Xuan, didn’t mean to put you at the emo spot. sorry.

Well till next time Janei.

2009-02-04T11:48:00.003+08:00

It has been awhile since I last blog le.

Well I guess time is flying by at its own fast and slow pace, depending on how everyone sees it.

I know this came a little late, but hey I got into Molecular Biotechnology in Ngee Ann Poly.

Not exactly said my first choice but guess I just have to live with it.

I dun wanna risk opting for SP and then get rejected and get into an engineering course instead.

New Year had been great, went around visiting friends and relatives and getting ang paos. XD

Well this year is more special than the previous years, cos I did go to friends houses unlike the other years whereby I only stay put at home hahaah XD

Somehow with all the time that is passing by, one matures in different ways. Chuan said I matured yesterday, but is this really the case? Or is it simply the plain selfishness I had inside that stir up this so called maturity?

I wish to find the answer, but do not have the energy nor determination to probe on further.

I guess all I can do now is focus up for the next 3 months and see what fate has in stall for me.

If it is meant that in this 3 months, I am suppose to get it, I will still smile and face it. This is what I set out to do, I do not want to frown towards my problems, I want to face every single problem with a smile, a smile that says, "Its alright, I can get through this."

I will not reveal my true emotions, as they are simply redundant and brings alot of troubles to people around me. The only emotion I will reveal is happiness, true happiness. No matter how hard it is to attain this happiness, I shall not let anything get in my way.

For those who knows what I am referring to, I wish you would not frown nor worry about my problem and smile alongside with me, this shall be the greatest gift you could ever give me.

For those who don't get a single thing I am saying, don't ask, just smile along and soon you would find the answer in due time depending on the problem that occurs.

2009-01-24T08:32:00.002+08:00

Morning.

Well I am quite tired right now, cos yesterday literally went out the whole day.

I was in fact out since 8.30 am.

I went to my primary school to find my teachers, whom I didn't get to meet until like 1. cos they have lessons and sort lo.

Well I am quite happy though, I get to meet some of my friends XD

During the time that we wait for the teachers, we sat around and crap talked a lot hahaha XD, and apparently of the 6 of us present my O's scored the worst T_T.

Well then we walked around the old places to reminisce the old days.

We then played abit of basketball till we got chased out of the court by a teacher hahaha XD

Then when we met our teachers, well let's just say we had loads to talk about hahaah XD

Poor Kwan Hong though, both our teachers dun recognise him at all ahhaah XD.

anyway I am quite happy to see that rabbit I left with my teacher is still so active.

haha then after that, well I went home and on the way home I met Dinah, so we talked for awhile until I had to leave.

When I reached home, it was like 2++ near 3 le.

Then later at 5++ my sis pulled me out to Orchard to watch movie.

Well then we walked around, watched the movie Red Cliff 2 then Charlotte sent us home.

We reach home at 12.10 am lol.

I literally crushed into bed immediately lo.

well that's all.

Janei

New Blogskin

2009-01-18T18:35:00.001+08:00

Muahaha I made a new blogskin.

Well got kinda sick of my old one XD

so well hope you guys will like it too ahahaha XD

pictures neh

2009-01-11T11:12:00.004+08:00

Ok I am abit bored at home so I shall post pictures from like last month onwards, so prepare for a long list XD

Lol my uniform while working at Gelare

A little inury I got while working XD

lol the frog from Sakea came out to say hi haaha XD

Lookie Timu works at Gelare too XD

Another injury from work muahahah

A little something I bought on the way home from my class BBQ

Wedding venue of my cousin’s wedding

Nice light XD

I like the way they put things XD

I want the cake…

The main tables have nicer light. Appetizer got sushi sia Shark’s fin soup yum yum

Pepper bottle cute XD

Vinegar bottle lol

My red wine XD

Chicken yum

Prawn, I ate hell lot of this sia.

This is abalone and sea cucumber.

Fishie.

Rose and red wine XD

Fried Rice damn nice de.

Ok this is not clear it is suppose to be a face XD

layout of the venue.

red rose this time.

wah seh red carpet sia.

My violet contacts

Soo Kee jewellery preparing for their sales. Something a customer made.

Shao Quan’s Present XD

Cool sia, they let me handle the money at work.

Xephyr max combo, so happy.

Barney at PS. Voucher so nice XD Doreamon will love this Christmas Trees at Bugis XD Quan’s birthday cake haha XD it is a log cake sia.

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Nice Sun from east coast XD

This is from a christmas dinner XD

This is an injury I got when helping at Pearly’s class BBQ got burnt by charcoal haha XD

Pictures from Party world, was celebrating Wei Liang’s Birthday muyahahah XD singing is uber funs!!!!

Lookie a big fish with Chuan and Pyae poking its teeth.

Now Chuan is standing still while I attempted to poke the fish eye.

A picture of me standing by the siloso Beach

Oo Pyae is pushing the tree.

Nice fire works.

Chuan is taking a rest on the tree.

Pyae is gripping the tree.

oooo nice lighting, Pyae and Chuan is in a photo frame XD

Another photo frame.

Ok out of photo frame, me and Chuan trying to get blue with the lights.

Pyae and Chuan with purple light at the back.

Me and Chuan in the spotlight.

Pyae and Chuan in the spotlight too muyhahaha.

Pyae and Chuan in front of a circle structure.

now me and Chuan in front of the circle structure.

Me and Pyae taking picture with a nice tree.

Pyae and Chuan with the tree.

Me and Chuan with the tree.

CHuan with a nice waterfall.

Pyae is getting a bath from the waterfall.

ok I am advertising my book while the waterfall is washing my hair hhahah XD

Me and Chuan by the waterfall.

Pyae and Chuan by the waterfall trying diff poses XD

Oo Chuan is enlightened.

Pyae is enlightened too

NOw i plain look stupid hahaah XD

ooo nice light behind Pyae.

Chuan’s turn with the light.

Hey my light become blue and red.

Imbiah lookout, wonder what we are looking out for.

Chuan poked the pirate and the pirate poke his throat, so evil.

Pyae’s turn to poke.

HA I didn’t get poke, but I didn’t poke him too.

Chuan is staring at the camera.

Pyae is posing twist!!

Chuan’s turn smile smile.

I prefer one hand hahaah XD

Chuan with the merlion.

Pyae is with the merlion too.

Alright I am doing work with the merlion haha XD

Chuan is standing tall.

Lookie Chuan is cutes XD

Pyae looks like Sir Stamford Raffles.

Double twist XD

I am imitating L, guess it is a bad impersonation.

This are all fireworks from Vivo city.

UFO!?!?!?

My dream in a bottle, trying to throw it.

Chuan throwing his.

Pyae is throwing the bottle.

Pyae’s slippers.

Ssssh, the night is silent dun make a noise

Chuan is telling you too.

Pyae is double emphasising the point.

My book and bottle muahahah.

Nice lightings in the skies must be UFO muahahaa

New slippers XD

oooo

2009-01-09T09:10:00.001+08:00

Well I am bored stiff at home XD Any Sec 4 wants help in studies can always call me. 100% FOC de. but only for Riverside Secondary 4 students is FOC.

Well I am actually posting this from a programme by the new messenger I just hope it works nice lo XD

2009-01-08T08:26:00.002+08:00

The morning is slacky and boring lol XD

Well shall be going to Temasek Poly and NanYang so can slack abit more before making my way out bah ahhaah XD

today is solo day, will be going there alone muahhahaha

yesterday went Republic, they improvd abit more from the previous years, but still not nice lalala XD

well shall end here, also nothing much to blog about de muaahaha XD

janei

2009-01-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

LOL so long since I last posted, ok it is just 3 days ago. BUT these 3 days and we have already crossed over to the new year!!! WOOHOOOO

Happy MOO Year to all XD

Yesterday was a blast, went to Sentosa with Teck Chuan and Pyea. Though I said I went with them, I felt like I was doing a wild goose chase. I only finally met them at Sentosa itself.

HAHAH XD

Well we walked around, talking, having fun, take pictures and laugh around through the night.

Anyway I fell into the pond, I RULE. Ok I initially wanted to jump onto a platform in the middle of the pond, but once I am on the edge, I lost the feel of the jump and I just drop into the pond muahahaha XD

My slippers broke after that XD

Well then we went to 7-11 where I get a new pair of slippers, while Chuan and Pyea got something to eat. Pyea left to find a beach first so leaving me and Chuan in 7-11.

We went to find Pyea after awhile and yes Tanjong Beach isn't very close to 7-11 haha XD

Then I saw this sign which says, Park your car at your own risk, beware of peacock attack. I was laughing lar, if the lighting wasn't bad I would have taken a picture of it le XD

Then we sat at the beach and slacked, talked wrote our wishes and COUNTDOWN!!!!!

It was awesome, then after we finish countdown we stuffed our wishes into a bottle and did a relay throw whereby I start the run, pass to Pyea then Pyea pass to Chuan and Chuan throw it into the sea WOOHOO!!! It was awesomely fun XD

Then we left Sentosa at 1am hahaha XD

We caught both the last trains home, EXTREMELY LUCKY!!!!!

So well I reach home at 3 am and then bathed and slept at 3.20am. I only wake up today at 9 am lalalal so stupid. Haiz tomorrow school reopens, that means I have less people to ask to go out since the butas have to focus on their studies as O's is coming up this year.....

Well here I have a list, cos yesterday I spent 10 hours from 12pm to 10 pm listening to the 987fm top 100 songs. So now I will put up the list of the top 100 songs. It will be in descending order.

987FM TOP 100 SONGS 2008

100. Spiralling - Keane
99. Give It To Me - Madonna
98. Realise - Colbie Caillat
97. Bust It Baby (Part 2) - Piles/ Ne-Yo
96. A Milli - Lil' Wayne
95. Can't Help But Wait - Trey Songz
94. Chasing Pavements - Adele
93. Later 2nite - Mark Bonafide
92. Make Some Noise - Krystal Meyers
91. Won't Go Home Without You - Maroon 5
90. What About Now - Daughtry
89. Just Us Two - Max Shanti
88. If That's Ok Without You - Shayne Ward
87. Sorry - Buckcherry
86. Closer - Ne-Yo
85. Just Fine - Mary J.Blige
84. Can't Hold On - Melee
83. Give Until There's Nothing Left To Give - Reliant K
82. In The Ayer - Flo-Rida/ Will.I.Am
81. All Summer Long - Kid Rock
80. Leavin' - Jesse Mccartney
79. All Around Me - FlyLeaf
78. Bye Bye - Mariah Carey
77. Your Love Is A Lie - Simple Plan
76. When Will I See Your Face Again - Jamie Scott/ & The Town
75. Inconsolable - Backstreet Boys
74. Shut Up And Let Me Go - The Tings Tings
73. Mercy - Duffy
72. Like You'll Never See Me Again - Alicia Keys
71. Lolipop - Lil' Wayne Static Major
70. That's What You Get - Paramore
69. Elevator - Flo-Rida/ Timbaland
68. Pocketsful Of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield
67. Heartbreaker - Will.I.Am/ Cheryl Cole
66. American Boy - Estelle/ Kanya West
65. Thunder - Boys Like Girls
64. Tattoo - Jordin Sparks
63. Sweetest Girl (Dollar Bill) - Wyclef Jean/ Akon/ Lil' Wayne/ Niia
62. S.O.S. - The Jonas Brothers
61. I'll Be Lovin' U Long Time - Mariah Carey/ T.I.
60. This Is Me - Demi Lovato/ Joe Jonas
59. How Could I Just Kill A Man - Charlotte Sometimes
58. The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavinge
57. Woah Ah! (Me VS Everyone) - Forever The Sickest Kids
56. Bubbly - Colbie Caillat
55. Love Song - Sara Bareilles
54. Beat It - Fall Out Boys/ John Mayer
53. Crush Crush Crush - Paramore
52. I Got It From My Mama - Will.I.Am/ Fergie
51. Shadow Of The Day - Linkin Park
50. Damage - Danity Kane
49. No Air - Jordin Sparks/ Chris Brown
48. Superstar - Lupe Fiasco/ Matthew Santos
47. One Step At A Time - Jordin Sparks
46. Happy Birthday - The Click Five
45. Handlebars - Flobots
44. Forever - Chris Brown
43. Gimme More - Britney Spears
42. Misery Business - Paramore
41. Empty - The Click Five
40. Love In This Club - Usher/ Young Jeezy
39. When I'm Gone - Simple Plan
38. Potential Breakup Song - Aly & A.J.
37. Hero/ Heroine - Boys Likes Girls
36. Kiss Kiss - Chris Brown/ T-pain
35. When I Grow Up - The Pussycat Dolls
34. Hate That I Love You - Rihana/ Chris Brown
33. Seven Thing - Miley Cyrus
32. Don't Stop The Music - Rihana
31. Pictures Of You - The Last Goodnight
30. Teenage Love Affair - Alicia Keys
29. Better In Time - Leona Lewis
28. Lucky - Jason Mraz/ Colbie Caillat
27. The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script
26. Burnin' Up - The Jonas Brothers
25. Viva La Vida - Coldplay
24. Disturbia - Rihana
23. Teardrops On My Guitar - Taylor Swift
22. See You Again - Miley Cyrus
21. Shake It - Metro Station
20. Stop And Stare - One Republic
19. When You Look Me In The Eye - The Jonas Brothers
18. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
17. Built To Last - Melee
16. Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
15. Nine In The Afternoon - Panic At The Disco
14. Easy - Paula Deana/ Lil' Wayne
13. No One - Alicia Keys
12. That's Not My Name - The Tings Tings
11. Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
10. Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade
9. Crush - David Archuleta
8. Check Yes Juliet (Run Baby Run) - We The Kings
7. Always Be My Baby - David Cook
6. 4 Minute - Madonna/ Justin Timberlake
5. With You - Chris Brown
4. Stronger - Kanya West
3. Take A Bow - Rihana
2. Low - Flo-Rida
1. Apologise - One Republuc/ Timbaland

phew finally the list ended I took 1 hr plus writing this hahahaha XD

well Pictures and videos will be posted all together once, i get everyone of them XD

2008-12-29T22:17:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Looked down on
Commitment
Death
Where Your life is Going
http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_is_your_true_fear">What is your True Fear? http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

lol found this quiz on Iffah's blog.

They I am very inviting wo, I was like what the hell hahah XD

I dun think I am that inviting, but the part of me being insecure and unsure is quite true lo XD

2008-12-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

Lol today is a pretty lethargic day.

I woke up like 9 in the morning, I mean like wth 9?

That is like hell late ok...

Fine I know that 9 is quite early for some people but to me it is like late.

Well I spend most of the day rotting.

I din go for cosplay T_T

nvm maybe tomorrow if I feel better than I go bah.

Well I just watched a show and somehow I learn something....

I found that anything can be a reason to do things, as long as we are honest to our present self and emotions.

Well now I have sorta cleared my mind in someways.

I have been lying to myself for so long time to be true.

There is no point in fearing, why should I get so affected?

They maybe very close to me but still it does not explain why I must be so affected.

In the end I am just lying, I keep thinking they needed my care and stuff like that, but in the end it seem more like I am the one who cannot live without them.

Well now I know this, I find, there is no point in leaving, cos I have found back the courage to stay. Now I shall just do my best not to need them too much and I believe I can do it ^^