I guess the title says a bit..

I am feeling pretty emo every weekend, I do not know why, I think I have a bit too much to think...

I am only cheering up with food, but even so, there is a limit to it..

I am trying to move on, but it will take some time...

I am surviving on the memories of happiness..

My smiles and laughters nowadays are getting faker than before, that I am definitely aware..

My friends will ask me if I am ok, then I will reply I am doing great, but am I? I don't know..

I need to buck up, I know love has taken a toll on me, I need to move on, this is not one relationship which I can handle. therefore I need to move on..

Till the day I find that strength to do so, I need a break now... ok thats all



Jyanei XD

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Alright somehow I find that being in class tempts me to blog haha XD

 I find it is nearly a month since I last blogged, but then again also like no one view my blog, since there is no taggers, and my tagboard is like super dead muahah XD

 This past week has been super busy and stuff, and I am abit tired but still surviving haha XD Not gonna die so easily MAUHAHAHAHA... but yea it is a bit too much to take at times...

I guess there is more that I need to do this week as I look through my organiser, the whole week is packed with activities...

Tomorrow and saturday is extremely packed, like tomorrow I have 3 events simultaneously occuring and clashing zzzzzz.....

Saturday have 2 events clashing, plus the concert is a worry for me as I am seriously underprepared for it....

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Yesterday was a very very sad day. I spent the morning and afternoon suffering from heart uneasiness, I do not even know the cause of it.... Is it loneliness? Is it anger? Is it pain? Is it stress? I don't know, and I guess I don't care..

Then evening went for the concert rehersal which I wasted 5 hours of my life as the conductor only focus on her students to the point that the whole strings ensemble people are neglected and we did not even practice at all.

From 5-10pm was just random talking and sitting around, it is like wasted my time when I can do more productive things..

Then at home I was trying to talk to most of my friends which obviously, I talked half way and fell into a deep sleep.... This is stupid, just stupid...

I can't wait till the end of this week. Like this I can have a bit more time to rest despite having to rush for my presentations...


I find I am super sick of saying about my love life stuff, thus I am not saying, and will only say when something productive comes out...


 Alright that is all for now I guess

 Jyanei....