Alright been quite a while since I posted an entry haha XD

Been real busy with school, all the ccas and stuff are slowly but definitely piling up with all the tests and quizzes etc.

I have no idea what's wrong with me nowadays, I am somehow losing part of my patience, becoming like pretty easily annoyed, I seriously need to regain my composure, I know that what ever that is affecting my mood will continue to do so for a long time to come, thus I need to strengthen my tolerance and increase my patience even further than it already is.

I guess the weather has taken quite a bit out of me, the alternating sun and rain is causing my body to weaken, ever since the start of this week, I have been getting faint spells and it only increases as the week progresses, which well I will say today was quite often and I think it will only continue to increase.

I just hope I can last till saturday without fainting, that is all I ask for.

Now I will do a bit of ranting.


I guess losing my heart is a mistake I have done, now I feel no love, and all my emotions are like turning into anger somehow.... It is frustrating and I seriously need to cool down and get back to being happy, even if it means I have to wear the mask for my life, because I won't want to show my anger, it is not fair to anyone at all.

My sadness, anger, all my negative emotions, are not to be shown, because of my personality, it is extremely capable of amplifying the effects of all these negative emotions and I will become very devilish, which is not fair to anyone at all.....

Alright I hate to continue so shall end here Janeh.

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