"Did I make the right choice of taking up this job? The pay out is not bad despite the work is abit tough, even though I know it is unstable but I am willing to work hard for it, but yet I am getting so stressed over it, did I choose correctly?"

secondly was on my attitude to some friends.

"Am I showing how I truly feel towards some of them? Am I just acting to be friends to some? Am I really true to my own emotions? I feel that certain emotions I show in front some of my friend is so fake I want to puke, but yet why can't I show them what I really feel?"

thirdly was on my own personality.

"Is my personality that compromising? Am I really that adaptable to many people? I don't know, sometimes it feels it is a need to change according, but in the process I lost my true self, so now who am I actually, fake or real? I feel fake, how to be real again?"

fourthly was on my life is overall.

"I don't know what is going on, am I still alive to begin with? Sometimes my existence seems so silent, I can't make a sound, this is so frustrating."

Basically this is the random thoughts that go through my emo day.

Yes I feel my presence is very silent, I feel sometimes it is so silent, it engulfs me in a vacuum that even when I shout, there is no sound.

I feel I am on a paper boat, floating down the stream, not knowing when the boat will sink or whether I will be able to reach an end before it does, I need the extra help, but it is always not available, as the people I seek help from seems to be missing most of the time, this is really tiring, my mind seems to be frozen in the midst of this....

I will end with a sentence: